Ever since I can remember I have seen, heard, felt things that no one else around me did.
Even in my "All About Me, My First Seven Years of Life" book; starting at about two years old (and repeating annually throughout it) my mother listed the thing I was afraid of as, "Ghosts and shadows."
At first I didn't understand that not everyone heard or saw what I did. Then I thought I was crazy. I didn't want to tell anyone what was going on which made it worse. I remember waking up at 3am every morning petrified to move or open my eyes. It didn't help that I had what I now know to be as a portal in my home. It was like Grand Central Station and not everything that came through was good.
As a teen I decided to try to find others like me. I found a few people interested in Ouija boards and other entity provoking ideas and ended up with a lot dangerous things around me. I did it at the time to prove to myself that I wasn't crazy, but man it was stupid. I was lucky to meet someone who did end up at least showing me the ropes so to speak. He taught me how to clear out energy from a home, how to clear a home of spirits, how to protect my personal space, and even a bit of how to help others.
Now at thirty-six I have a much better sense of myself. I have wonderful husband (skeptic turned believer) who understands. I have two children ages seven and four and I'm 99% sure my four year old also sees. I am good at ignoring the ghosts most of the time, only bringing them up if they are very insistent or if someone asks about them. Most people don't even know what I see hear and feel daily.
Here is where my need for advice comes up...
I had a friend post a couple pictures on FB a few months ago of an old abandoned room with some orbs in it. He was asking everyone for an opinion on what everyone thought it was. It was pretty obvious it was dust and I told him so. He didn't know this side of me. Speed forward at a social function he introduced me to "His psychic friend he told me about". I was excited to meet someone. The second I shook his hand I got a yucky feeling though and when he spoke it got worse. Here is how the conversation went.
Me- "Hi, so nice to meet you! It's always so exciting to meet someone else with gifts."
Him- "Hi. I see you have two guides with you. They say you are just starting to discover your gifts. You just learned about what you can do."
Me- "Guides? Nope. I have always seen. I have helped clear houses and even reunite a couple people. I'm pretty comfortable with what I do."
Him- "Huh, that's strange. They say you are in your mid twenties and just discovering what you can do."
Me- "Nope, thirty-six."
Him-"Oh they mean mid twenties on your spiritual journey."
At that point I just said "Fascinating!" and excused myself saying we should chat again sometime but that I needed to go talk to someone else.
Since then I have been so bothered by the conversation. First off I hate it when people don't believe me, and I hate to feel this way, but I really feel like this guy is a fake. If he is then it pisses me off because I feel like he is taking advantage of people by feeding them BS. If he isn't, then what the heck did all that mean? Why did my stomach turn when I shook his hand? Also, as far as I know I have never seen a spirit guide. So, if they exist, then why don't I see them? I experience so many other things. So not them? Anyway, any comments or insight would be greatly appreciated. Thanks in advance.