This all started in early 2010. I've always been able to remember a vivid dream, but it would be nothing more. However, I began to have these vivid dreams so potent that I could remember it for days, even weeks. These dreams weren't happy dreams, but highly nightmarish. It all started with a parent & I in my very own house, she drinking until drunken point, & she & I would argue until either yelling, crying, &/or fighting. The very first "nightmare" that occurred of this unfolded just around 1-2 weeks afterward. When the dream actually happened, I thought it was just coincidental & was in denial. Not long after, I had another one, with just days of the "nightmare" becoming a reality. A pattern began to emerge with these "nightmares".
In each "nightmare", what this parent wore, her facial expression, her eye movements, the color of her hair, her hairstyle, her body language, her hand gestures, her voice tone & pitch, even her jewelry, were either near the same or exactly the same from in these "dreams" when the events unfolded. The time of day would show rarely, but I'd know if it was morning time, noon, afternoon, evening, night time, or wee hours. The room (s) it/they took place in, any other people around involved, & how they looked, were dressed, expressed themselves, how they talked, & how they reacted also unfolded.
All of this would occur a few times a month working it's way up to a few times every 2 weeks. It eventually got to a few times per week to almost every other night. The more these "nightmares" occurred, the more the evil manifested. By evil, I mean everyone & everything going downhill in my environment. The more evidence I was seeing that my own "dreams" could come true, especially since they were DARK, the more apprehensive I became, more untrusting, more skeptical, & more cynical, just to be proven a valid reason to be.
The latest premonition I remember having in 2010 took place in the month of July. It was only but 3-5 before the event occurred. In this "nightmare", my parent & I were basically yelling, almost screaming at each other, because I was telling her how fed up 'I was with her drinking style' & that 'she was an alcoholic'. I told her how much it was 'ruining my life' & that 'I can't take anymore before I attempt suicide'. After I said that, she looked at me so dead & empty-eyed, & calmly & almost robot-like, said, "Then, you go ahead & do that because I'm sick of hearing it. If you truly want to die, then you'll go & do it. So, go kill yourself."
I don't remember exactly what she was wearing in the "dream", but they were her daily clothes, not PJ's. It was late night going on the wee hours. The lights were off in the house, surrounded by 2-3 night lights, except her bedroom light, which was dimmed. Her bedroom door was 3/4 open. She went to take off, slammed her door shut, & locked it. I was in deep shock, went to my room to cry, then went to her bedroom door, knocked on it to see if she was awake, & attempted to talk to her. She wouldn't wake up, so I winded up attempting to bottle my emotions up while continuing to cry, & went to prepare to head out the house door to take off & leave, preparing to attempt my life. That's when I woke up.
It was literally those 3-5 days later that this VERY same exact event happened, just as exactly as described in the "nightmare". It freaked me out so much, that I did the unthinkable, which was take off & leave. What I did after that I'll leave blank for now.
Starting early Summer of this year, 2015, I had another premonition unfold. The only difference from the dream versus the event was the room in the house it took place in. I also had a premonition last month that also occurred the same, with the same people, time, event, etc., only the beer bottles my parent drank out of had a different shape, but the bottle color & brand was exactly the same.
I have had a recent "nightmare" again just this weekend. From what I've noticed before from in the past, it feels like it was a premonition. I'm in deep fear because there's nothing I've been able to do to stop the event from happening or how to even avoid having premonitions overall. I do NOT want these anymore, no matter what I research & find. I want to completely get rid of them, as it's taken a toll on my life & even almost fully effected my life for the worst, & I feel I'm at that beginning "downward spiral" phase, meaning that I get fearful of the future coming event (s), pull away from those I'm closest to, & emotionally get sick (extremely depressed with crying-spells, intense anxiety, deep hopelessness, apathy-spells, etc.).
Does anyone have any advice or answers on what I should do, especially if there's a way to get rid of these premonitions? All in all, I feel as if these are more a form of Psychic Attacks, but I don't know by who &/or why, especially when these "dreams" involve my parent! Please help. Thanks in advance!