For as long as I can remember I've always been able to sense when something bad is going to happen or when someone is going to die. My family has always just passed it off as women's intuition, but its more than that. I can meet someone and by shaking their hand I know whether they are good or bad.
And when I was very young, age 3, I told my grandfather he would die soon, he passed within a day. Since then, I have sensed the death of my husbands family members, my father, brother and even a few friends/acquaintances. I think, I'm not entirely sure, that I may have even helped my friend avoid a terrible accident.
Lately, when I get these feelings that something bad is going to happen, I begin feeling the usual unsettled feeling and who it concerns usually pops into my head. But lately its harder to get the image of whom its about. Does this mean I'm losing my gift?
And then there's the shadow standing by my bed. The dark shadowy figure that's at the edge of my vision. The shadow that holds me down, makes me feel as though I can't breathe. Shows me horrible things, and I can feel him watching me, draining me. What is this? I've always known there was someone there, but now it feels threatening. But just this one shadow, the one that lurks, just at the edge of my vision.
Can anyone give me guidance? Help me figure out what this all is? My mother just wants me to pray it away. But I don't want to lose this gift, it doesn't feel wrong, I just don't know how to control it or fine tune it. Is it possible to learn that? Am I too old to learn how? I just need some kind of direction/guidance with all of this. Please.
Any help/insight/guidance is appreciated.