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The War With Myself


I was never like the other kids. I didn't have friends, couldn't spend the night anywhere, always felt judged or different. Due to the solitude I put myself in I never knew my abilities. Honestly, I still don't know what they are.

Yes, I've seen things but not often. Yes, sometimes I hear voices in my head that is not my own. That has never bothered me. What bothers me is the pain I go through every day.

A family friend was dying in a nursing home so I went to visit. I never spoke about the things I go through until this time. As soon as I walked in the building I would get simple words popping in my head like someone was playing ping pong. Cup, home, horse, train, necklace. It was the most overwhelming experience I've ever had but since then I feel like I've gotten stronger.

Since then I was walking around an older cemetery reading names and dates when a certain plot and headstone caught my eye at the edge of the wood. "Evelyn" I thought. I saw her face in my head. Light shoulder length brown hair with a small clip holding back her bangs to the left, mild curls, dark eyes. She was wearing an off-white floral dress. "She was 24 I think it was a car accident." As I said all of these things to my friend I walked over to the small headstone.

Her name was Evelyn. She died at the young age of 24. Early 60s. I will never forget her face. Her smiling as if she was laughing and turning to someone. She was so warm feeling. Her face made me happy, yet sad. She reminded me of my grandmother, whose name was also Evelyn.

I suffer from severe bipolar depression with bits of mania. I've been on several different medications since age 7. I always thought the feelings I had were due to my mental disorders. I fight every day to understand what's going on and to simply get out of bed. What if I am just crazy and all of this is a coincidence? What if my strong emotions toward things is just my bipolar depression and I'm just weak and can't handle myself?

Can someone explain what I experience and why? Please.

Thank you...

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LadyA (1 stories) (6 posts)
6 years ago (2018-11-19)
Yeah, I've been told I was a lot of different things, but sometimes I think people are called things when what say or believe doesn't jive with what the doctors think or have been trained to see.
Honestly, I have doubts in myself and am not sure I want to believe in some of the visions I've had. Some of them pertain to some really nasty people that I hope don't exist.
I don't even want to perform anything like other people who can sense this stuff do. I don't believe in calling up or disturbing the spirits like a seance can do.
I do think I sometimes hear spirits or dead people. I don't think it makes me insane on any level for sure. It just makes me think that perhaps people who believe in what is beyond are not so superstitious after all.
I do admit to a nervous disorder brought on by the trauma of being bullied and some of the weird things I've seen over my lifetime. However, I think sometimes you need to get more than one opinion about a so-called diagnosis before deciding it's definitely this or that.
peculiargnat (2 posts)
6 years ago (2018-11-17)
Hey Copperas, I also have mental issues and I have blamed my visions and paranormal experiences on that too. I don't think you're crazy, you likely have legitimate psychic abilities, and you can use those to your advantage. Your experience in the nursing home really hit home with me since I've had many similar experiences. Random words will just pop up in my head, and they're loud! Having an overactive mind is hard and it might actually be a gift. You might receive valuable, life saving information via ESP. You're not alone and I wish you the best. Stay strong ❤
AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod
6 years ago (2018-10-31)
You sound like an empath. I wrote an article to help (hopefully) with that:


You probably would make a good remote viewer. I wrote about that here on my other website:


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