I am writing to see if someone can help, or have the same "gifts" I have. I can feel (or sense) spirits, mostly people I know. For example, my grandmother who passed two years ago, is still somehow around me. I feel her around in my mothers home. My two year old son for no reason, will go up to her picture and kiss it, even though he was a baby when she died. When I feel I can "sense" a spirit, I go from being calm and relaxed to being very alert. I feel like someone is watching or hovering over me. The next experience I want to discuss is my next door neighbor (Mr. M), he just passed about 7/8 months ago. Ever since he died, for some reason I couldn't go near his house. I couldn't explain the feeling I had, but I just didn't feel right going near. I realized it's because he is still in his home. I sense him so I know he is still there. Even though the house is dark and empty, through my "sensing", it's like he is still occupying his home. He has a chair he used to sit in almost everyday at his home. Every time I come home I find myself fixated on that chair, and my eyes won't let up, that let's me know he still sits in the chair. I'm very aware that he isn't leaving his home anytime soon.
Another experience I want to talk to about is what happened to me at school. I go to night classes, and one time I went into the bathroom and it felt like someone had their eyes on me. I was very scared, then all of a sudden a cold air brushed by me, as if I was standing by an air conditioner. Without me even noticing, my chest became heavy and I felt like I couldn't breathe. Anxiety came all over my body, and I couldn't calm down until I got home.
Also, I want to talk about what I experience in open fields. I"m from the south, so anyone from the south knows they are a lot of open fields and farm houses here. The farmhouses outside my city are very "unsettling". I can have music blasting really loud, and singing very happily, but then, out of nowhere I will feel sadness and fear take over my body. It feels like maybe slaves our native american have restless spirits due to tragedy. Whatever it is, it is very sad and depressing, but once I'm away from that area, I'm happy again.
Lastly, (sorry it's long) I want to talk about how dead people will come into my dreams and leave messages for their love ones. It feels as if I'm talking to the person in real life, but I eventually wake up. I normally always pass the message on. (not everyone is open to it) Also, I can see babies before they are born. Everyone of my sisters and all their children, I'll have dreams about the baby. Like I will literally know what the baby looks like, and the personality the baby will have, before my sisters ever knew they would have a child.
Asking for help because some people treat me like a voodoo priestess and throw bible scriptures in my face. I reaching out for help, because I've been treated terribly trying to explain this to people who just don't get it.