I engaged in an immoral emotional affair, with a married man. He was my teacher for one year, and we immediately formed a way-too-deep bond. But while I was his student, the telepathic input from him wasn't so torturous. After the year-long course ended, though, then he started talking to me, telepathically, around the clock. I am quite ill, too ill for relationships, and he is always trying to tell me what to do, in order to make my body well again (presumably so we can have more of a relationship). Ironically, his telepathic inputs are so degrading and controlling that they trigger my childhood trauma (with a degrading, controlling, narcissistic mother). And I have binged a lot, to try to regulate all the trauma-triggering, so that my health has quickly deteriorated to an even-worse place. So, in his telepathic input to me, he is trying to MAKE me well, but, instead, the stress of it has made me sicker, very seriously sick.
Early on, a renowned spiritual teacher came and said that this particular man was the man I was supposed to marry. So I have been mightily confused about all of this.
I am severely psychic and empathic, and this man tends toward the narcissist end of the spectrum. He is much older, my parents' age. So a lot of things have combined (with my past) to make this particularly hellish.
It took me many, many months of turmoil and destruction, to see that this relationship does not fit. But even though I have dropped all contact (since Sept. 10), and I have finally decided to end this connection and leave it behind in every way (in the past 2 weeks), his telepathic inputs are just as frequent and persistent as ever. It never matters what I say in response, about how much it is hurting me, and how I don't need it -- I have spirit guides to provide me with guidance and information. No matter what I say, he persists and persists and persists.
I see that this is a known topic in the Christian world -- ministers who are trained to help you break wrongful soul ties. I myself am not Christian.
I am working passionately with Abraham Hicks and Law of Attraction, but I do not see much shifting, in my experience, in response to that work.
I consulted a psychic and someone in Spiritism, and they both thought that I have demonic entities who are PRETENDING TO BE this man. But I do not think that is the case. And I have found a few cases online now, that were similar to mine, where they developed an intimate soul tie to an inappropriate person and had similar overwhelming telepathic input.
I'm putting my story up here, because I'm hoping that I can find anyone who went through this experience and was successfully able to stop the telepathic input and move on with their lives.
This is so overwhelming that there is not much else I am managing to accomplish in my life. I can't give my attention to other things very well. It is awful!
Please do comment below, if you or someone you know has had success recovering from such a thing. Any resource recommendations would be appreciated.
Thank you for reading! All best wishes.
Thank you so much for responding to my post.
I am trying so many things, and none are effective yet.
I have tried cutting cords, but nothing seems to change.
Can you or anyone recommend any guided cord-cutting meditations?
Thank you again,