Hi, I'm Kristin. I'm not sure what I am or what gifts I possess. I can't control anything I do but I'd really like to learn.
I've always known that there was something weird about me. When I was little, I was able to move things with my mind. But it was never on command. It was when I got extremely angry. At one point I made the door slam in my mothers face. It was never anything extreme. The heaviest thing I ever moved (other than the door slamming) was a sock flying across the room when I was sent to my room. Now I'm 18 and sometime between then and now I lost the gift. I don't know how to get it back or if I've lost it.
I have dreams that come true. But I can never remember them until the event occurs, and it's too late. I dreamt I was arguing with a man and ended up being beaten to death with a baseball bat. A few days later, I found out that a boy I went to school with had just moved in with his grandmother because his father beat his mom to death with a baseball bat. But if I have these dreams (I always dream it's happening to me) how am I supposed to help someone if I'm the one experiencing it in dreams? I don't understand it. I'm useless.
No matter where I go, odd things happen. Things will turn on by themselves, I'll close a door only to come back and have it open, or I'll wake up in the middle of the night to someone whispering my name, and it scares me. I'm not so sure I want dead people talking to me at the foot of my bed every night. I'm useless, how could I even help them when I don't know what's happening to me?
I saw a psychic, he was a friend of a relative, and he told me that I come from Wiccan and druid descent. He also told me that no matter where my mom, sister and I go that we will experience things. And that spirits will be drawn to us. He started talking about the goddess, and it sort of stopped me from listening. Because I believe firmly that Jesus died for me on the cross to save me. And I'm not about to pray to anything else. He told me that they are all one in the same. But I'm not so sure. I'm sort of confused about it all.
I can't control anything. If someone hurts me, like really hurts me, something bad happens to them. My dad's teeth are falling out. When I was 12 I got into a fight with a girl who hated me, and I told her to go drop dead (actually, I'm not sure if I just thought it or said it to her) but a week later, she died of a heart attack with no known cause. What if I'm evil? I never wanted anything bad to happen to anyone. But everyone who hurts me seems to get hurt. My mom said that the same thing happens with her.
What am I? I can't control it. It's like, one day I'm a normal person and the next I have dreams that come true. It's like my life goes back to normal for a short span of time, and then goes all zonked again. I don't understand it.
I don't know what I have, if I have anything. People call these things gifts, but what if I'm just cursed? I really need someone's help. I don't know what to do or think. I just need something.