Hi, I'm Kristin. I'm not sure what I am or what gifts I possess. I can't control anything I do but I'd really like to learn.
I've always known that there was something weird about me. When I was little, I was able to move things with my mind. But it was never on command. It was when I got extremely angry. At one point I made the door slam in my mothers face. It was never anything extreme. The heaviest thing I ever moved (other than the door slamming) was a sock flying across the room when I was sent to my room. Now I'm 18 and sometime between then and now I lost the gift. I don't know how to get it back or if I've lost it.
I have dreams that come true. But I can never remember them until the event occurs, and it's too late. I dreamt I was arguing with a man and ended up being beaten to death with a baseball bat. A few days later, I found out that a boy I went to school with had just moved in with his grandmother because his father beat his mom to death with a baseball bat. But if I have these dreams (I always dream it's happening to me) how am I supposed to help someone if I'm the one experiencing it in dreams? I don't understand it. I'm useless.
No matter where I go, odd things happen. Things will turn on by themselves, I'll close a door only to come back and have it open, or I'll wake up in the middle of the night to someone whispering my name, and it scares me. I'm not so sure I want dead people talking to me at the foot of my bed every night. I'm useless, how could I even help them when I don't know what's happening to me?
I saw a psychic, he was a friend of a relative, and he told me that I come from Wiccan and druid descent. He also told me that no matter where my mom, sister and I go that we will experience things. And that spirits will be drawn to us. He started talking about the goddess, and it sort of stopped me from listening. Because I believe firmly that Jesus died for me on the cross to save me. And I'm not about to pray to anything else. He told me that they are all one in the same. But I'm not so sure. I'm sort of confused about it all.
I can't control anything. If someone hurts me, like really hurts me, something bad happens to them. My dad's teeth are falling out. When I was 12 I got into a fight with a girl who hated me, and I told her to go drop dead (actually, I'm not sure if I just thought it or said it to her) but a week later, she died of a heart attack with no known cause. What if I'm evil? I never wanted anything bad to happen to anyone. But everyone who hurts me seems to get hurt. My mom said that the same thing happens with her.
What am I? I can't control it. It's like, one day I'm a normal person and the next I have dreams that come true. It's like my life goes back to normal for a short span of time, and then goes all zonked again. I don't understand it.
I don't know what I have, if I have anything. People call these things gifts, but what if I'm just cursed? I really need someone's help. I don't know what to do or think. I just need something.
Your experiences is not a curse.
You are a sensitive spiritual person. I know this because I've had similar experiences.
All my life I've had similar experiences and since a child I told myself I want to learn of it.
So all the time I would observe, think and feel and try to understand what is right & wrong. What are the bad energies and good energies.
One of the things you mentioned that "Jesus is our Savior and is the one and only" I felt happy that you said that. Because He is the one and only and He guides you in those moments. He knows your experiences and your heart.
If you want to get closer and understand what you have pray to God and ask in the name of Jesus Christ that you want to know Truth.
He will show you. I know this and I swear by this that you will sooner or later get answers. After your prayer seek for answers and feel guided by good feelings and inspiring feelings of your spirit.
In your journey of finding truth and observing your experiences Loren to your deep feelings,
If you feel an awkward, nausea, turning kind of like misleading feeling then that means there is something wrong, bad, dangerous or not the right answer
If you feel a happy, good, inspiring feeling then it's good, right, and the right answer. What I have learned is how to use it and take control of it, and Understanding it.
What I have done is observe everything when it happen. Like how do I feel? My emotions, my body. What did I think of and how did I think in that moment?
Try to exercise your memory skills and train your brain to help connect to your spirit so you will know and understand things by the spirit not just the mind. So when those moments come you will know what to do and how to feel.
The experiences you have in your life are a gift and can be understood. God bless you and I hope that this might have answered some questions. 🙏💛