Have you ever been so infatuated with someone that you have never met? Whether the answer is yes or no, you can probably sympathize or empathize with what I am about to say. I have. Shocker, I know, but I have been in love with someone I have only met through dreams since I was sixteen. I am twenty-two now, and the dreams have come to a crashing halt since the pandemic. I haven't made out even his shadow lingering in my dream.
The point of my writing and musings on a psychic website is because the dreams before the pandemic, the last dreams were borderline premonitions that I have never told anyone until now. I was in a hospital, which is rare since my mother has cursed off all doctors in my life since I was little. But there I sat in a hospital bed with a hospital gown on and a mask. The date of the dream was October 11th, 2019. I remember it because that was the most chaotic and detrimental month of my life. The details aren't as important to my story, though.
I was trying to get back to a house I never expected to want to go back to to the point of the dream. Then, he appeared. Daemon. My fallen from grace Angel. He was wearing scrubs and a mask, and a surgical scrub cap. He told me he knew I was scared and I would feel that a lot soon, but I needed to trust him and leave with him into the unknown. It was the one instance I didn't. I didn't trust to follow him out of that hospital. I didn't trust my own choked down intuitions. And I never told anyone. I never told anyone about what I saw. And I haven't spoken to Daemon since. I've held out moving on with my life with the hopes that he does exist and that I could be happy with him. I don't know people well, so I liked being alone with him changed something in me. His not being here has struck a chord within me, and I want answers that he may have about what is going on now. I wish I had just trusted him, and maybe we would be together now and not indefinitely apart.
Think about where I'd be in a year with this guy - same place or maybe worse.
Think about where I'd be if I were to really focus on trying to find one thing that made me happy and worked on being the best version of myself. Little by little. Just plant one little seed each morning in my "Peace Garden". I wish you peace and clarity. Listen to your voice that guides you to happiness - that's the Truth