My visions have been more vivid lately and they're more dark as well with hardly any good visions at all. Sometimes when I dream I'm afraid I won't wake up at all because in some of my lucid dreams I can't move at all unless someone makes me move like I'm a puppet. There's always the same people in my dream for the most part, but every once in a while I'm greeted with a new face.
My latest vision was when my sister and I were at the grocery store and taken hostage by a demon. I know he's a demon due to his charcoal black eyes. He said that"They're coming for me." But I don't know who they are. That was when he pointed the gun at my sister but I jumped in front of her and took the bullet and woke up screaming because I actually felt like I was shot by the demon. I then called my sister to make sure she was okay and not in any type of danger. She wasn't in any trouble, but then the part that really has been bugging me lately is that people could be after me if that was a vision.
My mom thinks that I get nightmares because I'm stressed out that I'm going to college next year, but trust me that's not the reason. Plus the voices in my head are getting louder and not all of the voices are good ones, but some are bad and they give me uncontrollable migraines.
Another thing is that I feel like I'm being constantly watched and monitored from afar and it doesn't help that I'm practically home alone all the time and I can't tell my best friend this stuff because she doesn't even believe in any type of religion, so how can she believe in what's happening to me when I tell her?
Another weird thing that happens to me is sometimes when I look in the mirror my eyes are black like a demons, and other times they're gold. Why would my eyes be gold at times?
Another dream I had that I keep having is I'm strapped to a metal table and I'm being injected with this golden orange liquid and I keep hearing this chanting in the dream that keeps saying "You're past saving, you're one of us, and that I'm just fooling myself if I think I can save the world someday." I hate that I feel so weak in these dreams and vulnerable, but I'm trying to make myself stronger so I can finally fight back and take back the life they stole from me when I was even a little kid they pushed me down. No one believed me even then because only I could see them. They treated me like I was weak and made me believe I was, they made me believe I was worthless and I'm done believing I am. No one should go through this or have demon troubles or fallen angel troubles. No one should feel like a slave in their own world that has been filled with darkness.