I once had vivid premonitions of the future when I would touch a person. I only would have a vision of what would happen between that person and I. Before that I would read palms and get visuals in my mind's eye of their future. I stopped doing them because the last one that I did that came true and I hoped it wouldn't because of how bad it was. I said that she was pregnant with a boy. She was pregnant but no one knew the sex, not even her husband, and it was too early to know the sex.
I said her son would be born healthy but he would die soon after. A year later I got an e-mail from a mutual friend telling me what had happened and that she had a boy and 3 weeks later he died.
Since then I refused to read palms, and I ignored all premonitions, and feelings, and locked away all spirituality. Now I only get small dejavus and dreams. I wish to be able to tap into my power again but I don't know how and I don't want to only see the negative, for that was my problem before.
I only seem to be able to read negative energy and I don't mind it as much I just would like to not only get negative. Please can anyone help me? Any advice?
Sometimes I feel like that girl in the movie Constantine; the one with all that power that she couldn't touch, until pretty much she was re-awakened. I know that's just a movie but that is how I feel. I was told once that I had a lot more power than I even knew of but that I can't reach it because of some type of block. He didn't know if it was a curse or what but whatever it was it happened to me before I was born, and I'm guessing its because of the power my mother possess. She can manipulate electricity with her emotions and I feel that might have something to do with it. I've talked to many different Wiccan priests and spiritual priestesses and nothing has worked so maybe a psychic might help, or someone who might have a similar problem.