A little background:
I've been told by many different sources that I have a crystal-like aura, meaning that I can pick up different energies very easily and therefore should be very careful with myself and who I surround myself with. I've always been very sensitive and have only recently discovered the term "empath" and probably am one. I sense a person's emotional state as soon as they walk into a room without looking at them. I guess I've always felt that this was a gift everyone has and that just a few people care enough about other people to pay attention.
What I've noticed in the past few months are eyes. I'll see an eye here or there, usually in nature, (a shape of one looking at me from the ground, a face in the leaves) but sometimes in patterns in the man-made world. Sometimes it's full faces, usually male. I see them for a second, and then they're gone. Sometimes I feel myself looking for them and I know that my attempts to see these eyes or faces are false, which is how I know when they're real, or more than mere imagination. I'd like to know what I'm seeing, if this is all some manifestation of my own psychology or if there are spirits trying to talk to me.
If my mind is relaxed enough I can sometimes hear whispers, almost between the silences. But they scare me so much I try to tune them out. I'd like to cultivate this ability (if that's what it is) but because of some negative experiences I'm frightened that "bad energy" will come into me. I'm aware that this is a self-fulfilling prophecy but I would like to know more about how to protect myself, since I am feeling incredibly vulnerable to those energies that would just snack on mine, if that makes sense.
On top of this, I see colored spots all the time. There are many different kinds: some I see buzzing around in the sky, white and seemingly chaotic, sometimes bumping into each other. These are not the cells in my eye, I see those too. These white spots of light act alive and sometimes I see them buzzing around me-- it's as if the energy pattern that is in a constant hum around me, has a tremor. Other times I see a single colored "sprinkle" around a person or in front of me that don't move and are only a flash. Once, I thought that these colored dots were scars in my eye left by light or my drug experiences. But they aren't in one spot in my vision and move around.
If anyone has any advice or ideas please let me know. I guess more than anything I'm looking for confirmations about what I think I'm seeing and some suggestions on how to develop these gifts slowly and without fear. I'd also like any help I can get in knowing how to protect my energy without turning it off or desensitizing myself. I haven't allowed myself to get to a level where I wouldn't be able to turn this off, but I'd like to be safely.
By the way, before I found this site and others like it, I felt very isolated and so thank you to all of you out there! Much love:)