It has been a while since I have been on this website. I have a new account because I cannot for the life of me remember my old account information. As a kid, I figured out I am somewhat of an empath. I can feel what other people feel, I can tell when people are lying, I can really just understand who a person is just by looking at them, and I can feel the energy around me. I grew up and really did not do much to grow these abilities so I am not so good at controlling them. I have also figured out I am intuitive and I just trust my gut feeling and things usually just work out for me. As a kid, I used to have spirits reach out to me via dreams. I would here things at my childhood home and see things. Since I moved away nothing really crazy has happened besides a few things here and there. I figured my abilities just kind of faded and it really didn't bother me.
Lately, I have started using Tarot Cards and overall they have had positive messages for me. I have been using blue, white, and purple candles during my Tarot sessions and will often call to the spirits and my spirit guides to help give me answers. I have been seeing repeat numbers all the time like 111, 222, 333, 444, 555. Literally every day! It is like every time I am compelled to check the time I am seeing one of those numbers. I understand that that is the Law of Attraction and its the kind of the universes way of saying I am headed in the right direction.
I am looking for a job and quit smoking pot for good after being a heavy user since the age of 16. I am in my 20s now. I do have a weird obsession with the goddess Gaia. I even named my dog after her. She was the runt of the litter and I wanted her to have a strong name. Well, I was meditating a little bit to try to sleep and I tried calling the goddess Gaia (Mother Earth) to help me and guide me and give me power to stay sober. I did feel a sort of energy and then drifted off to sleep and ended up taking a nap. Later that night I left for my night shift at work. I got in my car and put on my seatbelt. When I looked up out the front window I swear I saw a vision of what looked like a half-goat, half-man in the shadows by my house. He was tall and as soon as I saw it, it faded into the darkness around the corner of my house. The first thing I thought of with the devil, as that is a common depiction of him. Oddly enough, I didn't feel anything from it though, no fear, no big presence, nothing. I played it off as my imagination and went to work. Shortly after being at work I heard a woman kind of laugh in my left year. It sounded like it was right in my ear. She sounded older and it kind of freaked me out to the point that I looked and stopped having a conversation with the night security guy. I even told him I heard someone laugh in my ear. We joked about it, but it really spooked me and since I experienced things like that as a kid it's hard to do that.
There is no way those two things can happen on the same night without it being something. I am not sure what it is. Do you think it is the devil trying to lure me back into smoking? I used to pray, but really don't do that anymore. I believe more in universal energies and that there are many gods you can call to including the catholic version of god. Are there other entities that could look like a goat on the bottom and human on the top? Or could it be some sort of spirit messing with me? Should I not be calling out to Gaia (Mother Earth)? What do you think? Any insight can be helpful.