I have always been interested in the paranormal. I would listen to family stories when I was a child. My father and grandfather would sometimes have dreams of tragedy that came true. Other family members have had dreams of dead family members when something bad is going to happen.
When I was young 8-11 I remember watching Wheel of Fortune with my family and two times I clearly remember knowing the answers before any letters would be turned. I am the worst speller and I just remember having an over whelming knowing feeling. I wasn't counting letters or anything. Around that same age I remember waking at night with odd vibrational feelings sometimes a very liquid or bloated/inflated feeling.
My mother has always told me I can always see the good in people. This is to my demise. I seem to be able to tell when people are acting out of spite/evil and when good intentions are actually in their heart. It is like I can understand a person's motives for their actions. Get to the root of why they act why they do. Sometimes I can see/understand their desired outcome even if they are not going about it. I am always in the middle of arguments as to explain everyone's actions/motives and explain why they act the way they do without really ever being told.
I tend to make judgments of people after only knowing them a few minutes. My mom had called me one day very upset about a situation in her family. I told her not to get so mad as she didn't understand why it happened and that she would come to learn his reasons and told her the reasons I thought it would be. Several days my mom called me back to tell me my feelings about the situation were 100% correct.
I have also had several telepathic experiences. Knowing when someone in another country was going to call and having to get home to have the phone ring with in 5 minutes of getting home. When people direct thoughts to me I feel it. At times I feel very pushed and suffocated by some people. Once many years ago I woke one morning sat up in bed and watched pictures like a projector on the wall. I had to concentrate very had to make the images go away and when I would relax they would come right back. It was of me and an ex, all the good times we had. About 15 minutes later the phone rang and he told me he had been thinking about me all morning. In the last year a friend and I have tried sending messages back and forth and been able to get what some of the message not always as you would imagine it to come as but it works.
I somehow seem to be able to sense the changes of energy. Feeling like a spirit might be around. Looking over your should kind of feeling. Lately several times I have had a huge pull to go to a cemetery that many of my family members are buried in. I feel like they are around me but not able to understand what they are wanting, unless it's just their way of telling me they are here.
Several times in my life I feel like I have been touched or projected feelings felt physically, but have no idea why or what for. I have also had experiences of electronics going off, toys mostly. Mostly things move or go off when there is turmoil in my life. One night while going through my divorce, my ex and I had been fighting and I had a headache. I just wanted a quiet bath with candles. I could not get the candle to light and I hit my fist on the counter and said I just want the lights off. Right then one of the main power cables coming into the house went out. The electric company had to come replace the line coming into the house. Weird things like this only happen when I have been very angry.
Several years ago I went through a period of hearing what I call voices and thoughts that would fly through my head. Nothing much more than trivial things but it would come true. It was right on 100% of the time. This happened 5-10 times in a year or two long periods. I don't hear the voice anymore but know enough to trust what it says if I were to hear it again.
Off and on through out my life I get strong esp feelings. There have been times it felt more like I dreamed the event more than esp.
My question: I seem to have a wide variety of experiences and none that stick. How do I strengthen them?
Thanks in advance for any advice or help in my quest to understand,