Hi everyone. I hope that I have come to the right site as I need some advice. I'm a normal 22 year old girl and ever since I was small I remember many experiences so vividly. I would be lying in bed (about 4-5 years old) and all of a sudden all the noise around me would disappear and voices would come into my head. It happened on a few occasions and somehow I just knew that it was nothing from this world. Sometimes it would be a few voices at the same time saying my name, I would hear laughing also. It is so hard to describe as it sounds so mad but I'm not mad I am totally normal. I only experienced this when I was younger. Another experience of mine when I was younger was when I was woken in the middle of the night and my toy doll started talking to me -the only way that she would talk is you had to press a button on her hand. How did that happen?
When I hit about 15 all I could think about was wanting to help people who are ill by putting my hands on their head -it's like I am convinced that I have healing powers! Why at this age am I thinking of doing this? Why was I not thinking about doing normal things like going out with friends etc. Although I was going through a very hard time and was feeling very low. I also had an experience when I was living in a house a few years ago. The house had a unhappy vibe to it. One day I went up to my bedroom and in one corner of the room was the strongest smell of cigar smoke. It freaked me out so much that I slept downstairs for a few days.
Over the years up until now, I have been told that I am special. I have been born with a heart defect -does this have anything to do with it? I feel that I am here for a reason... it's so weird and I don't know how to deal with this and I don't know why I feel like this? I have a strong belief in the afterlife and angels and have been told that I am a earth angel? What is this? I'm so confused as to why I am such a spiritual person when none of my friends are, etc.
I'd really appreciate your help.