I returned to live in my hometown after living out of state for the last 18 years. I am of Hungarian background and my paternal grandmother and aunts were all very well versed in the spirits.
While lying in bed one night, a memory surfaced of a very sweet moment during my 15th year of life. I was with a potential puppy love in school and we were holding hands. He left town a few days later and we never got together again.
I had not thought about this moment for years but reliving it was very sweet and it stirred up emotions that I had forgotten. However, it was not a normal memory. It was if he was right next to me, holding my hand. Might I say, no one has ever made me feel this way again, I am now 46, divorced twice.
So, I began to look for this person and much to my dismay, discovered he committed suicide in 1998. Since this discovery, I am just consumed with him. I tracked down his grave, which is unmarked. He was buried with his mother but the family did not mark the grave. Luckily, the undertaker gave me the info.
I am thinking that he is contacting me from the other side for a reason. My brother keeps telling me I am just melancholy but I feel there is something more. Can anyone tell me if there is a way to find out why he is contacting me?
It has gotten to the point, where I am actually visiting the grave daily.