So, this may sound odd, but I actually discovered that I had some sort of abilities through watching Wife Swap. There was a family of "ghost hunters" on it, and they talked about their business and their abilities, and I turned to my mom and said something like, "I don't think I could do what they do. It scares me way too much when I feel ghosts around me."
And she kind of chuckled, as if she wasn't sure I was serious. I asked her if she too could feel ghosts whenever they were present, and she gave me a weird look and told me that no, she'd never felt that. I looked at her, bewildered, and asked, "You mean you can't feel their presence? You can't sense that there's some sort of energy around you?" And she gave me an even weirder expression and again replied, "No."
I started thinking about all of the times I'd felt things in my old house, about how every time I'd walk into the basement, I'd feel this heavy, oppressive energy around me, and hear loud and clear inside my head 'get out, get out, get out, they don't want you here.' I started remembering how I'd see doors creak open on their own and flickers of human figures in the corner of my eyes every other moment. I thought about when I was 12 and I went over to my friend's house and saw the entity of a hanged man in one of her trees, bloodied and anguished-looking; I could feel so poignantly his helplessness and his sadness that I took off running, thoroughly terrified.
I never thought it was abnormal or unique to see or feel these things, because whenever I talked to my older sister about it, she had plenty of stories of her own to share with me. It wasn't really until I talked to my mom that I thought maybe my sister and I were different from others.
So I guess, to sum it up, I'm a little frightened about this whole thing, and I don't know how to control it or hone it or anything. Fear has played a big role in how I've reacted in the past to these abilities I have, and I don't know how to erase that hindrance and focus upon developing them.
It's safe to say I'm very new to this, and I'd really like some guidance on how to go about confronting my connection to the supernatural. Thanks so much for reading, and I hope you'll be able to help.
-Clarisse
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