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Need Guidance - Am I Cursed? My Abilities Are Turning On Me

 

I've been reading the stories on this board for a while and am overwhelmed by the amount of encouragement and support, so I turn to you for guidance.

I'm not really sure where to start, so I'll include a bit of everything.

I am highly empathic, and have been so my whole life. In fact, until I was a teenager, I actually thought it was "normal" to feel what others were feeling, to know what they knew, to draw out their energies and "read" their motives. People have called me the "human lie detector".

I'm also able to sense energies not connected with people. I get strong feelings and connection with places. Some might call these "hauntings", but this isn't always the case. While I've experienced my share of spirits, shadow people, etc, sometimes these energies are connected with a specific place or object, like I can feel its history and its "mood". This happens rarely, but when it happens it is an extremely powerful, overwhelming and almost debilitating feeling.

Now is where it starts getting strange.

Over the past, let's say 3-4 years, my abilities have gotten stronger but have also gotten "worse". And when I say worse, I mean: it's gotten to the point where I can ONLY sense NEGATIVE energies, spirits or places. And these negative energies don't leave like they used to; they stick around like a black cloud following me through life, draining my energy and sending me into bouts of depression, anxiety and frustration.

When I meet someone, even if the person is outwardly positive, happy, content, I will immediately feel every bit of pain, sorrow, or in some cases evil that has visited their spirits. This energy consumes me and will not let go - I feel like I've become a magnet for negative energy. I used to be able to cleanse myself by either relaxation, envisioning a white light around my body, etc. But now when I try these things I am almost immediately exhausted, drained and occasionally break down completely. Whatever this is has a hold on me. WHAT it is, exactly, I'm not sure.

I believe this negative energy surrounding me has begun to manifest physically and impact my daily life. I go through my days feeling anxious, sad, angry, frustrated, nauseous, etc. I've started noticing that when I have these emotional "flare-ups", they will almost always be followed by some physical (usually electrical) manifestation. Usually by a flickering light or some other electrical glitch like a computer will freeze or some small electronic device will break or malfunction.

I'm afraid to leave the house. When I do, I try not to look at people or interact with them beyond a superficial level. I've cut off contact with almost everyone because I simply can't bear the weight of their energies. My husband (who is also empathic) today told me that he doesn't recognize me anymore, and that my energy is actually frightening him.

I don't know what to do. It's gotten to the point where I feel I have lost complete control over my abilities, that they are turning on me and destroying my spirit. How can I regain control? I don't know where to turn for help - hopefully someone can help me find some answers.

Thanks for reading/listening. Happy to answer any questions or clarify.

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Newbiepsychic (109 posts)
 
6 years ago (2013-09-26)
I thought Thimiz advice was excellent! Couldn't have said it better myself. I would just add... You ARE stronger than you think you are, that's the problem, right now you are a sponge absorbing all negative. Stop it. Just stop it. You can. For some reason you think you can't but you can. It's not the white light or candles that will do it, those are just aids, it's you. Don't be dependent on outside influences to sway you every 5 minutes, find your internal strength. It's there. You just don't believe that it is.:)
Good luck ❤
Thimiz (1 stories) (24 posts)
 
6 years ago (2013-09-25)
Become a little more self-centered I guess, don't think you need to take in or deal with any energies consciously. I think this is a case where you've delved a bit too deep into the subconscious, unsaid and hidden parts of life...

So the best idea is to be more superficial and let things go, focus on finding something you enjoy. Be less serious and more, casual. Just say "whatever." shrug your shoulders whenever you notice a drag, and breath out while thinking "here we go again." I think you've forgotten how strong you are, the feelings and energies you receive are tiny compared to the giant ecosystem of your body.

So let the body handle it and your mind rests on things that make you feel like you can get through the day 😁
Real-Helper (15 posts)
 
6 years ago (2013-09-25)
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Real-Helper (15 posts)
 
6 years ago (2013-09-25)
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thewind (3 stories) (80 posts)
 
9 years ago (2010-07-21)
Oh how I hate reading these negative stories, it makes me feel bad for the victim. It's the one thing I don't like about this site. 😭 Anyway, all I can think of is fighting back the emotions. These bad things will probably leave if they find you are becoming a more positive person. Unfortunately, this is hard for some. And this sounds pretty strong. So you're going to have to try pretty hard to just think about the positives in things instead of the negatives.
Guillermo (1 stories) (7 posts)
 
10 years ago (2010-03-18)
You just got to stop thinking negative. Always think positive. The demans are getting to you don't let them, Go to church. Ask spirits of heaven to help you.
stormtree (1 stories) (53 posts)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-20)
f claire,

I have a suggestion, and I hope that you consider it very, very seriously.

Beginning with Ursula and Ruth, you have gotten a lot of excellent direction here around renewing your own spirit. I think that your husband's concern for the shift in you is quite telling.

Something within you that has shifted. While the knee-jerk response is to say that the problem is not your gift itself, it is quite possible, even probable, that in the process of being spiritually open you have taken on something negative. It is also possible that you have had something positive taken away from you. At any rate, you are now attuned to and attracting negativity.

While I generally like to focus, metaphorically speaking, on lighting a candle rather than fighting the shadows, it may be that you need a directed intervention to remove the negativity from your field. It may also be that there is something that needs to be called back home to you.

As a rule, my healing instincts are dead-on. I don't always have a hit, but when I do, and especially when it's this strong, I have learned to respect it. There are many paths, and many ways to find healing and wholeness, but as I read your post, I found shamanic extraction and soul retrieval strong in my awareness.

Included in the various aspects of shamanic practice, there are interventions referred to as extractions, power animal retrievals, and soul retrievals. I'll tell you a bit about them.

The person who is journeying for you should first seek guidance regarding what you need, and then may literally pull out of you negative entities or energies which have attached to you. There may be some aspect of strength or healing that you lack that your soul will recognize or ask for in the form of an animal, such as a dove for peace or a bear for strength. If these are called for, and whatever they are, they will be blown into you. Finally, it seems that, in times of stress and trauma, portions of our essence can be fragmented and hide away somewhere out of the traffic of your life. The healer may journey through the middle world to find that lost part of you and bring it back in safety.

If you are curious to know more, go to www.shamanism.org.

You are in my prayers.


Stormtree
christiangirl (9 posts)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-16)
I know how you feel, I feel unsafe a lot of times. But I fond a way to fight back. Most people think that psychics are not seeking help from God, but I do, and it works. Every thing that I ask for was granted, even my baby cusin. I am a christian and I follow Jesus 😁
Ursala (48 posts)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-14)
We,... (as Humans) sometimes take ourselves & our lives too seriously. Have you ever watched kittens or puppies playing? Do they worry about tomorrow, today, even what's going to happen in the next hour? No, of course not. Powerful lesson there. What about kids playing? Do they worry about the, "what ifs"? Of course not.
Imagine yourself in another lifetime, say the Middle Ages. How does your life compare now? Just something to think about.
revsilverson (guest)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-13)
there are many many ways to cleanse and protect yourself against negative energy overload. In your case I imagine your heart chakra is wide open and you need to close it down some. I also daily visualize a pyramid of mirrors with the mirrors facing away from me to bounce back the negative energy. Then there is cyrstal therapy as well. Use black onyx or tourmaline (my favorite), hold it in your hand, relax and it will draw out the negative energy. Some people use fragrance oils to cleanse and protect themselves.

Count your blessings each day. Think positive thoughts, speak positive words and perform positive deeds. And surround yourself with positive people. There is a lot of sadness out in the world these days. Fight against it. The more selfless your behavior the more positive energy will come to you.

Love and Light
mystical2 (16 stories) (483 posts)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-13)
As Ruth said, meditate on the white light. If you find it difficult to do on your own, John Daniels has a cd out called "Meditation Made Simple". He walks you through several meditations with relaxing music in the backgroud and he focuses on the light. Your local library may have it or Itunes. Another thing you could try doing is whenever you start having feelings such as depression that is not your own, ask your spirit guides to remove the negative spirits/entities that are around you and cross them over to the other side. Remember, our spirit guides cannot help us unless we ask them too because of God giving us free will. This has helped me. I have actually felt like bricks were removed from my back because of the heaviness. Also, you probably need to start grounding yourself daily. You can do this by standing outside and envisioning a flower beneath the earth's surface. Envision that flower opening. Imagine a root growing out of each of your feet and have those roots go through the bud of the flower and then both roots joining together at the stem into one. Envision the root going all the down to the center of the earth. Once there, envision the white light going through the end of the root all the way up through the flower then seperating to each foot. Envision the light going up your body and then ending at your belly button area.
Hope this is helpful. I wish you the best.
God Bless.
Ruth (4 stories) (156 posts)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-13)
I believe when you are young with these abilities you are mostly looked after by your spirit guide, so its not so scary (although some kids are scared). As you get older, you become more conscious of the world around and you likely to absorb negative energy and or dark spirits etc.

Meditiation on the white light is a necessity! As your chakras have been exposed to negativity and as a result of this you are suffering. You will also require to cleanse your chakras and slowly build a shield of white light around you. Please EVERYONE who reads this if you are sensitive or an empath you MUST meditate on the white light. This not only enhances your psychic abilities but protects you from negative energy.

There is a lot of information on the web in relation to meditation of the white light and your chakras.

Please feel free to email me if you would like anything clarified.

Luv & Light
Ruth - medium 3 years 😁
Ursala (48 posts)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-13)
f claire, it sounds as though you need to take time out and recharge. Try going out into nature, preferably by yourself. Visit the ocean, the mountains, even the desert can help you regain your equilibrium. Being near rushing water can help cleanse away those accumulated negative energies. I find dawn and dusk the best times to deflate. If this all seems improbable, grab a lawn chair and sit there staring up into those gorgeous stars on a crystal clear night. For all the negatives out there, there are many more positives. Sit quietly & think of all the miracles & blessings you have or have had in your life.
XtjrX (7 stories) (300 posts)
 
11 years ago (2009-05-12)
f claire: I'm highly empathic too, and yeah, I tend to gravitate towards the dark stuff a lot of the time. It almost destroyed me, but I seem to have gained control over my abilities just in time -I'm now 32. I had NO IDEA how much toxic garbage energy a person can soak up from others, or just by having the tv on as background noise. Powerfull abilities can feel like curses until they are tamed. Angles can look like demons if your afraid. What I'm trying t say is... I understand:)
AnneV (4 stories) (1037 posts) mod
 
11 years ago (2009-05-12)
As a co-empath, your husband should rather understand that it's hard for an empath not to feel negativity when our world is full of it. You don't have to be an empath to turn on the radio and hear all the bad news, sit in traffic and not get frustrated, feel the fear as unemployment reaches all new highs, housing is a bust, etc.

What your husband has over you is that he's able to tune a lot of that out (men are generally better at tuning out this in general so don't feel bad). Women are raised and more predisposed to take in emotions. You'll have to work all that much harder at closing yourself down more, taking concerted efforts to find the positive in this world (a task in itself!), and so on.

You've been this way your whole life. Like anything, undoing or steering into a new way of behavior takes time. We rarely change suddenly (though we can) so be patient with yourself as you make these modifications. Taking the negative path is much easier than the positive because the physical is a low vibration place. It's amazing any one of us can be positive! But do try and protect yourself for your own mental health and your relationships. "Like attracts like" which is why you are spiraling. You have to break this pattern or it won't improve on its own. This is hard to do and we understand that. If you're surrounded by the energies that you've consciously or unconsciously attracted, it's hard to pull out of that. For some, it's a life-time of work.
Hope this helps.
Anne

Anne

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