I just need some answers.
My mom is a psychic she claims that she is a healer and I really think anything she says or tell me is a joke. Growing up I dealt with a lot of weird and unexplained experiences that I felt it was not normal to ask anyone even my mom. I see spirits anywhere, everywhere but my house. My house is too haunted. My mom said that he will give us peace as long we give him peace. My mom has all these weird things that she keeps with her, she calls them her helper. She told me that I have psychic abilities too I just channel them out.
I have depression/anxiety because of mixed emotions that I get on a daily basis (do not take any meds). I can feel other people's emotions and pick up vibes from them. I know how they are and their intensions. I also sometimes subconsciously do things and not realize what I'm doing it. For example I would doodle then next thing I know it's a drawing I know I can not draw. I would just sit in my room watching T.V then I end up having a knife in my hand cutting out a piece of my carpet of a square at the end of my bed. I still don't know why or the purpose of that. I'm scared of asking people I know because they might think I'm crazy. I can make up something up like a lie to get out of trouble and it end being true. I say things and just know things with out thinking about it. Anything I want really bad I end up getting it (not like shopping).
Today I still think that I am somewhat coo-coo but I am not sure. My zoning out and doing things scares me because of what I might and can do. My mom would tell me sometimes "I know too much and some things are not meant to be known." Like I said every thing she says is a joke to me but is that true? Am I under a lot of stress and my brain playing tricks on me my entire life or just a psychic that's in denial and can not cope with the abilities?