I've never really posted any stories about my psychic experiences but this particular one has been troubling me.
Over the past several years I have been practicing OBE's/astral projection/et cetera. I have never successfully done one though. I looked on many different websites, doing all the techniques suggested and they never did fully work. For example; about a week ago before I fell asleep I got myself into a relaxed, meditative state; all of my body was motionless and asleep. As I was in this state I would go into very brief changes of consciousness where I could hear bits and pieces of spirits talking to me or talking around me. I relaxed more and saw for about a few milliseconds a face floating above me then my arm jerked causing me to come out of the meditative state I was in. I got myself into the calming meditative state again, heard snip bits of spirits speaking, and every time I did this one or all of my limbs jerked. I have no idea why this happens every time I get into this mental state.
I have conversed with my spirit guides and they have told me that I am running away from "them" (whoever "they" are) and if I connect to my higher/inner self then "they" will be able to find me. Also death seems to haunt me. Throughout my life I have constantly had death there, as if it was trying to get me but keeps getting deflected by some force. Here are some examples of death being "near" me (so to speak) and they are out of order;
Passing of an uncle I was never really close with
Passing of my grandparents' friend
Seeing a dead snake on my driveway (I basically live in a woods so seeing wild animals is normal for me)
Witnessing a dying weasel/possum (I get these two animals confused)
Having a large, dead tree at the end of my driveway
So any suggestions or ideas to why this happens to me? Has any else had similar experiences? Thank you in advanced for the help!