Don't know if I am going mad or becoming more enlightened.I'm a mum to a beautiful 8 year old boy who is on the autistic spectrum, I'm a wife and a support worker for adults with learning disabilities and recently I've moved projects and now support adults with learning disabilities and mental health issues.
I've always had a very strong intuition when something bad is going to happen, as the years have went by I've been able to pin point very clearly what I think it will be and it's turned out to be correct. My gran passed with dementia last year and the family is divided (long story short two aunts are at war with another and it's caused a huge rift). Well I was in bed with my husband the night after my grans funeral and my bedroom door sounded as if it were being hammered down by the police! Three huge bangs that shook the house. Opened the door to nothing there. I'm nearly 26 and I called my dad in fear whilst hiding under a duvet lol.
The family figure because I am the one who is into ghosts etc that my gran has came to me to show her anger at the state of affairs. A year on and I've began hearing a ringing noise in my ears, got it checked and doc says they're fine but out the blue I'll hear it. My sisters friend asked that I do an angel card reading for her and I did and whatever I said (I can't really remember what I said at the time) must have rung true because she was crying and shocked at how accurate I'd been. I've since done this a few times and it's always resulted in tears because of how personal and accurate I've been. I've recently been suffering from severe mood swings to the point that after a night out where I unexpectedly done a reading I came home and smashed the house up. This is not like me. Police were even called out. Am I going mad? Feel so overwhelmed at times,I'm better now but I'm terrified of it happening again. I spoke to my mum and she told me she thinks I have a gift but I've to learn how to block it in a way that it won't interfere or drain me. I'm unsure what to do. I can pick up peoples emotions without them saying so (my husband brought his friend home for a drink one night and to meet the friend u'd be reminded of a very bubbly gay man, within an hour I had the urge to ask him if he was ok and had he tried to kill himself recently and he burst into tears and said yes two weeks ago due to losing his best friend from his home country. I'd never met him before and my husband had never mentioned anything other than his name to me.) I don't know if its just stress overload, madness, or a gift as my mum says. I'm terrified because my uncle and gran had schizophrenia albeit my uncle developed it through heroin use, but there's still a higher risk I could develop it due to genetics. And if it is a gift then how do I control it as I fear if another outburst of rage etc happens again I could lose so much in my life.