I have found my way to this site out of desperation for guidance. Over the past few years I have had premonitions of the future and the past in the form of dreams and day dreams or "visions". I'm not completely sure what this means or how I can exercise it in a more controlled and productive way. At first, it really freaked me out, but over time I have gotten accustomed to it. However, it still hits me pretty hard whenever these instances occur. If someone can please give me advice on what do or any information on what this means, I would really appreciate it.
Please, any responses will be greatly appreciated.
*As a back story to what I have experienced, here are a few instances:
One week I was away at a camp and unable to contact my family. Each night as I laid in my bunk, I was hit with this wave of anxiety and sadness. I kept imagining what it would be like if someone I loved died while I was away, and my family wasn't able to tell me. This happened every night for seven days. Finally, on Sunday I graduated from the camp and returned to my barrack to retrieve my things. Outside of the barracks, everyone's families waited. As we started to approach the barracks, my heart sunk and I had a sudden wave fear consume me. For no reason at all, I wanted to cry. I walked over to my mother to be given the news that on Wednesday of that week, my aunt passed away. Not only was odd that all week I faced this daily worry and fear that this would happen, but on Wednesday night (the day she passed), I dreamed of walking into the living room of my house and hugging my aunt as the image of her faded, and the dream ended.
*Another time this occurred was a little more recently. I dreamed of a woman (heavyset, short/curly/black hair) laying on her stomach in a bed, covered in blood. After telling my best friend about this, tears formed in her eyes as she told me that the funeral for her aunt who passed away last week (and perfectly fit the description of the woman in my dream) was tomorrow.
*Another time, I kept seeing "visions" of a friend of mine commit suicide. I saw these scenes in my head for 2-3 days, and then they stopped. The next week, that friend's girlfriend was released from the hospital after attempting suicide. I had no previous knowledge that she had done so.
*This story hits me with intense regret. For three weeks, I would find myself dreaming while both asleep and awake about someone that was very close to me. I would see scenarios of us singing songs together, driving together, and many other simple activities. This didn't completely make sense to me. I thought about this person a lot, they meant so much to me. However, I hadn't talked to them, seen them, or even thought about them in months. Then, suddenly they were all I could think about. After three weeks of this, this person committed suicide.
*This is the last one I will share as an example. Before I started driving, when I was younger, I would see my grandfather everyday. I would ride the school bus to his house, sometimes catch the bus at his house, visit him on the weekends, and spend everyday at his house during the summer while my parents worked. We were very close. As I got a little older, I wasn't spending as much time around him as I used to, but the bond was still there. I did start riding the bus to my parents house, though. One day I had a very uneasy feeling. Something within me just felt off. I was worried, anxious, even a little sad. I had this terrible feeling all day that something wasn't right with my grandfather. When I got home that evening, my mother told me that he had been in a car accident. (In case you may be wondering, he was okay. He was just a little bruised and shaken up.)
When I have these dreams and "visions" they aren't always exact, but they're too similar to deny.