I'm new to this site and the reason why I joined was because I know that I have a gift and I wanted to learn more about it. I'm going to talk about a couple of my experiences and I hope to get some good feed back as to what you guys might think is going on with me.
When I was 14 years old I tapped into what I call my "Energy" for the first time (note: I don't know much of the psychic lingo, so I'm going to have to try and explain everything to the best of my ability). I was lying on my back in my bed in my room. The air was cold, but it was a summer night. I had an amazing window that allowed the moonlight to shine in on me as I lay. For one reason or another I decided to put my hands together and slowly pull them apart. Before this night I had never meditated, but my mind was as clear as it ever was. I felt an energy stir between my palms that felt similar to when you hold opposite magnets together and try to get them to touch.
At first I didn't believe what I was feeling. It shocked me and I pulled away, not allowing myself to believe it because I wanted it to be true so much. All my life I had been fascinated with magic and sorcery, always thinking of the what if's, but not expecting any of them to come true.
Night after night I would try to tap into what I felt and every time, whether it be within minutes or sometimes hours, I would succeed. I consider it a normal action now that I can bring it up almost instantly. Six years of practice and meditation has brought me to a life changing experience that I will now describe.
Two nights ago I lay in bed with my boyfriend. We had just turned off the T.V. And we're ready to go to sleep. I had told him of my abilities before, in fact he is the only person I have ever told. He was skeptical at first, but I knew that was going to happen so I just had to prove it to him. I had never taped into my "Energy" in front of anyone before so I was really nervous, it took some time but I was able to conjure the force between my palms and asked him to put his hand in between them to see if he would feel anything.
He immediately jerked away and stared shocked at me. This was the day that I first started experimenting.
Now back to the story of what happened 2 nights ago. He was lying with his back to me and I was feeling quite awake and not ready for sleep. So I decided to try to get him to feel my "energy" without him knowing that I'm doing it. I put my palm about 2 inches from the nape of his neck and used everything I had to push out to him. It took a minute, but eventually he jumped and turned to me and I started laughing hysterically because I had just proved to myself that it wasn't a lie. That whatever I was doing was really happening.
After that we started talking about it for a little bit and out of nowhere I got the immense surge of energy that rips through my body from the core over and over again. It was so instant that I could hardly breathe, and it made every muscle in my body clench. My boyfriend held me and asked me if I was ok, but I couldn't respond to him. I was lost in a sea of energy.
Finally, when it all had stopped, I looked up at him and I could feel the intense magnetic feeling so pronounced through my whole body that I simply did not know what to do. I sat up and, as if guided by someone else, I went to place my index finger of my right hand on top of his hand. As it got closer he started to shake, I could feel our souls connecting. I can't really describe this experience without sounding a little foolish, even to myself. But when I finally touch him he started crying and shaking to the point that I was scared that I had hurt him. He looked lost, as if he was seeing something that I wasn't.
When he calmed down I asked him what he had just experienced and this is what he said to me. "I saw you, the real you"
My whole body froze at those words and I became numb. I really feel as though we made an out of body connection that night and I will always remember it, but I hope that I will be able to do it again.
Please comment on what I have shared with you and maybe help guide me in my learning of this gift.