When I was a child (I am not sure my age, maybe 5) I remember one night falling asleep in front a mirror. I know it sounds silly, but I remember seeing something come up to the mirror and I remember communicating with it. I remember thinking "I can do that". I remember using the words portal. Well, what I remember after that is going to sleep and something coming up to me. I was so scared I couldn't move. I remember bits and pieces. My parents are strict Christians so I can't ask them about that night. For years after that I cried myself to sleep. I felt so evil. I begged for forgiveness from my parents. I don't know if this is an over active imagination or what it is. (that's what my parents told me then). It changed my life. I wanted to be a priest talked my parents into going to church two times a week. It really got to me.
Fast forwarding to the present.
I still remember that night. Since that night, I've seen Auras on people. I can feel and hear things too. I've even seen, for a lack of better words, beings. Some, many, come to me. I don't know what to make of it.
I really thought I was going crazy. I've done a lot of self tests to see if I was crazy.
I don't think I'm special (as in I have a gift that no one else can posses) or want attn. I am not sure how to tell if this is real or my imagination. I try to test myself all the time. I see what's happening to me and I can't get my head around it. I believe, but I feel like this can't be real.
What is bothering me is this. Somehow, I managed to suppress incidents of seeing beings, hearing them, etc. I actually went numb. Now, I see things all the time. I know the difference between "real world" and what I'm seeing. I feel lost.
Whats happening, where can I get answers? Is this real?
--Sorry if this post does not make sense. I've waited forever to get this out and my mind is going a million miles an hour.--
Loading comments....
Your psychic powers are starting to manifest. There is nothing wrong with that. Those who call you evil, they fear what they do not understand, too shallow minded.
You said that when it stopped, you felt num then it started again. That must tell you that, being psychic is part of you, be proud of it. You have answers which so many people want. It is a part of you, cna you can never deny that. You can never deny who you are, and if people force you too, then you should ingore them.
What I am trying to get around is that, your psychic powers are a gift to you, if you develop and nuture them, you can help so many others. You can help people, which means you are not evil. Also, being psychic is a part of you, and you can never deny who you are. Be proud to a psychic, be proud to be yourself and help others. Forget those who want you to think to deny it, because what right do they have? It's your life, your body, your powers, your decision. Be yourself and develop your psychic powers. I hope this helps. Good luck and thanks for sharing.:)