When I was a child (I am not sure my age, maybe 5) I remember one night falling asleep in front a mirror. I know it sounds silly, but I remember seeing something come up to the mirror and I remember communicating with it. I remember thinking "I can do that". I remember using the words portal. Well, what I remember after that is going to sleep and something coming up to me. I was so scared I couldn't move. I remember bits and pieces. My parents are strict Christians so I can't ask them about that night. For years after that I cried myself to sleep. I felt so evil. I begged for forgiveness from my parents. I don't know if this is an over active imagination or what it is. (that's what my parents told me then). It changed my life. I wanted to be a priest talked my parents into going to church two times a week. It really got to me.
Fast forwarding to the present.
I still remember that night. Since that night, I've seen Auras on people. I can feel and hear things too. I've even seen, for a lack of better words, beings. Some, many, come to me. I don't know what to make of it.
I really thought I was going crazy. I've done a lot of self tests to see if I was crazy.
I don't think I'm special (as in I have a gift that no one else can posses) or want attn. I am not sure how to tell if this is real or my imagination. I try to test myself all the time. I see what's happening to me and I can't get my head around it. I believe, but I feel like this can't be real.
What is bothering me is this. Somehow, I managed to suppress incidents of seeing beings, hearing them, etc. I actually went numb. Now, I see things all the time. I know the difference between "real world" and what I'm seeing. I feel lost.
Whats happening, where can I get answers? Is this real?
--Sorry if this post does not make sense. I've waited forever to get this out and my mind is going a million miles an hour.--