I been having dreams since I was little that always warned me of the future, it didn't tell me people would die but it would kill people off in my life, I have come to realize and analyze that someone dying in your dream does not mean they are dying, it is always an emotional battle for me, when I see a friends face and dream of rats around them I know that they can't be trusted, and I am usually right when I find out the horrible things they did behind my back. I slowly stopped thinking my dreams are nonsense and have embraced them.
I find it getting harder to sleep every time I embrace this. I see things in my dream about my fiance that has bothered me, recent dream he contacts his ex girl friend and shows her naked pictures of me and him, he didn't cheat on me in my dream but he showed something very private of ours... I can't figure out what it means my best guess was he is sharing a secret about us and not telling me. I also had a dream last week that my pastor was shot from a catholic vrs christians, he told me everything will be okay in 100 days, which is the exact days until my birthday.
It is so hard analyzing yourself, I am 19 years old and trying to figure out what I want to do in life, my biggest issue lately is me debating whether I want to live with my fiance once he comes back from the military (which is 8 months).
Or do I go solo and do what I want to get out of my system... I want to join the military, I want to travel, I only want a relationship with my fiance but he already got that out of his system. I recent found god in y life been thinking a lot about religion. My only guess from that dream is the battles I am struggling today before I hit 20, I am hoping that I will find an answer to what I want to do with out making a mistake I might regret. Spiritually and mentally. If anyone has advice feel free to give it