I've had psychic abilities since I can remember, except that before I used to call them nightmares, monsters and ghosts harassing me. At around 4 years of age, I used to be afraid to die, because I knew I would go somewhere I couldn't come back from! When my auntie died I was about 5 or 6 and I spent the whole day sitting next to her coffin, I wasn't afraid of her laying there dead, I was just so sad she was gone, I couldn't leave her side, her own daughter wouldn't even go near her. Later that night while I was asleep she woke me up and padded me on my shoulder said she's going to be fine where she's going, I never cried about her again, felt she was at peace.
Once when I was barely 5 years old, I spend weeks having the same dream of my uncle in chains laying down on my grandmother's bedroom floor, and every time I would try to pass by he would grab me, in this dream he had a tail and horns! I saw him as the devil himself. Later found out my uncle had become addicted to drugs and his life was really troubled after that, he died in his 40s, when I dreamt this he was in his late teens.
I was very smart in school and very aware of life at a very young age, I always felt I had the whole world on my shoulders. In my late teens early 20s (when I still lived with my parents) I started remembering a parallel life I was having, for some reason I kept getting confused with events that were not really happening! At times I would remember renting an apartment in NYC and having this older lady friend who would visit, I had a bed that was inside the wall, and my apartment was very small and surrounded by books, I was happy and I lived in mid-town Manhattan. Of course this wasn't really happening!:) but I would just say I must've dreamt it. Years later (mid 20s) I moved out on my own, rented a very small apartment surrounded by books, not in NYC but in North Bergen, NJ (very close to NYC) and I did work in NYC! And was very happy:) ! And yes I befriended an older lady...
At 20 years old this psychic (hot guy) gave me my first reading & told me I was a vessel!? Ended up dating him, & later found out he only wanted to use me. I was stupidly naive! I had no idea I could do all these things he had me do. He would have me report to him things I saw out of the people he would teach meditation to. Of course I would see all kinds of things almost orb out of these people very graphically. When I was with him I would feel drained and not happy and when I tried leaving him he would send scary things to me, I was unable to sleep. Once I would not pick up his call, disconnected the phone and went to bed. I woke up scared as I saw myself levitate and my whole head was being turned to the phone! Just heard the words call call call. Needless to say I was freaking out! I screamed and fell back on the bed.
I'm now 34 years old and am finally accepting these 'abilities' I get prophetic dreams, I can easily read the tarot cards and tell someone's life and future with great results. I have always been very sensitive to others (empathetic), so much so that my mother used to keep me away from people with too many "problems" as she said I would absorb their feelings and get depressed or even sick at times.
These are only a few of the things that have happened to me throughout my life, and I now find myself needing help to block others from seeing me for who I am. I've had people come up to me and say, are you psychic? I don't wear anything that would give me away or even mention these things to just everyone, so I don't understand why I'm so open. I feel I am too easily discovered!:) I am not ashamed of who/what I am, but I do want to be able to go anywhere without being asked these questions and definitely not be used, I know I've had one or two 'friends' who only get close to me because they can sense what I can do. Because of this I only trust one friend and its because she's a complete NON-believer, she's the most practical person I know! We've been friends forever...
Is there a sort of psychic mask one can wear?
I hope you can help.