I need your "interpretations" of me and my experiences. I am a 20 year old girl, who got the diagnosis ADD and medications this year. It's safe to say that my whole life has been a massive chaos. Now that I am medicated I'm so much calmer and at peace with my self. I see everything so much clearer. I believe I'm an empath, but as I wrote, I would love to hear what you make of me and these stories.
So here it goes:
1. To make this story short, I will try not to babble. All that matters is our basement in my childhood home. My experiences centers around the entrance to the basement and in the basement itself, were we have a bathroom. When I was I child I was always afraid of the basement for no apparent reason. This has followed me through life in a way. You see, I decided that there was nothing to be afraid of, and I could walk down there without any emotional change at all. The thing that trigger my interest is that often when I went downstairs I would suddenly become very very scared for no reason. Sometimes when I used the shower I could suddenly feel that there was someone in the room staring at me, but if course - there where nobody there. The fear of the basement always comes right out of the blue, because I am no longer afraid of the basement in itself. At times it could be so bad that I could feel the "stay away" energy upstairs by the basement entrance. I often had to avoid going near the entrance because the fear was so strong.
This is the only place I have ever felt bad energy or something in a house. I've had the feeling of precense in our family cottage, but it was never associated with fear.
2. When I was 14 I had an experiance at school. Let's say there was 30 students in my class. The tachers made 30 post-it notes with a single word on each, "yes" or "no". Of the 30 student, 5 of them would get post-it notes with the written word "yes", the rest would get the written word "no". And before they had handed out half the post-it notes I knew I would get a "yes" on my post-it noe, and that was exactly what I got.
3. I have a lot of deja - vu's and sometimes dreams that comes true, but I don't know if this is significant? One time I had a deja - vu of me having a deja - vu during a singstar contest with a friend. In the deja - vu I blurted out that I just had a deja - vu, my friend kept singing and I lost. So when I had that deja - vu about me having a deja - vu, I realized that if I didn't blurt this out I could win the song, and I did! For me this means that you change your future with every decision you make.
4. When someone gets hurt, and I either see the accident, see the wound (s), or is being told about wounds, I feel physical pain in the center of my stomach. I can also feel if somebodys hurting inside without them telling me. Like my friend (well, he's more than a friend) of mine who had a rough time and felt really bad, and I could feel his pain. It was so real and strong that even though he never did tell me anything, I just know that he was really sad. I've never had such a strong connection with anybody ever before. It was like there was this bond between us, and it was so real and intense that I could almost touch it. It was like I knew exactly what he was feeling. And I have absolutly no doubts about this experience.
5. I believe that I feel others feelings. Like f.eks. I did something really stupid, and called my dad to tell him about it. I told him not to be angry at me, because I was so depressed about it. Here's the tricky part. He didn't yell at me, he didn't say much more other than it was my responsibility... And afterwards he told my mom that he hadn't been mad/yelling at me on the phone. But I felt his anger, and I have never felt that much anger from him ever before. He gets easily angry, and I know exactly how his anger feels. This time, it was so much more than what is normal.
6. I can kind of see through peoples facades. I know very quick if the person I meet is a person that works well with my personality. I also know if a mean person is just mean, or if there's a good person hiding behind the tough words. F.eks. A friend of a friend always likes to call me things, and is a bit rude, but I feel that she is a good person behind her words and actions. Our mutual friend confirmes this theory of mine.
7. When I walk down a street, and at the same time listen to my ipod, I dissapear into my own world of thoughts. I don't see who, or how many people there is behind me, and I obviously can't here anything. The wierd thing is that I always feel when there is a person walking right behind me/passing me from behind before I see them. It's like I feel that there's something pushing against my back, and I feel the urge to step to the side of the street to let them pass.
8. I can't spot a liar. But I can spot a person who knows more than they tell me, and withdraw information on purpose.
9. I have troubble getting into sleep, so I stay a long time in the middle of sleep and being awake. I imagine that it will be kind of like meditation, where every thoughts just float...? Well... Uhm... In that state of mind I have often heard voices. Not my own, and it's not a dream either. I rarely get a hold of what is being told to me, but it is definetly not my own thoughts. I try to listen in, but it's a bit hard. To me it feels normal, but it is strange to tell others about it.
Sorry, long post! Any thoughs would be very helpful! Thanks:)