For many years I have had the feeling that I have had an ability that others don't have. I never knew what it might be but always felt that I had something special. As a child I would lay on the couch awake and find myself at the ceiling but I was so young I thought nothing of it. 5 years or so ago I had a long spell of dreams where I was flying and it was so realistic that when I was awake I would almost feel like it was possible. This is a big deal to me because these are some of the very few dreams I can remember.
More recently I have been able to lose my eyes at night and see white lights sometimes like its strings coming from heaven, and sometimes it's in the form or rings that get smaller and smaller until they make one focused point of light. Other times the same light will go from that point and expand and disappear. A few weeks ago I was at my wife's aunt's house and I felt as if there was someone standing at the bathroom door and as soon as I thought that I felt the very powerful presence of a very large man very close behind me. Another time I got the feeling there was a younger girl in the same house. I could describe these people very well but I have never seen them.
After this most recent incident I contacted a local psychic and she told me that I should learn to meditate and this would help me a great deal. That night I laid in bed and tried to clear my head and listen for any messages, I don't exactly know what I am doing so I don't really know what in shooting for when I meditate other than clearing my mind, when I did this a very strong image of a face was directly face to face with me. This face was going from far away to an inch away and then back and I had the feeling that it was trying to stop me from what I was doing. So today I sit and think do I have a gift, how do I work it, is this energy trying to stop me?
All insight is welcome, please let me know what you think!