My telepathic/clairvoyant/some psychic abilities are ruining me. I don't know how to deal with the fact that I know exactly what friends and strangers think of me. I also can't deal with the fact that I have to let bad events that I foresee or sense happen and then pretend that I'm totally surprised by it. And, I used to have more freewill with my telepathic abilities. Now, almost every time I speak to someone, I know what he or she is thinking.
It's nerve wracking knowing that your friend of six years dislikes you for absolutely no reason and she's acting like nothing's wrong. It's upsetting when my friend thinks that it's the end of the world because her boyfriend broke up with her, and I can't tell her that they're going to get back together by the end of weekend. And I especially can't tell her that they're not going to last after they reconcile. It's hard when I envision my mom getting a really expensive moving violation and I force her to get off the phone. It's also hard when I see newlyweds and instantly know that they're going to have a messy divorce. I just want to save everyone from the hurt and the pain, but I can't. I'm not God and chances are, they won't believe me anyway. They'll either think I'm crazy, or jealous, or just looking for attention. And because I'm an empath, when they are hurt, I feel it too.
Also, I had just turned 18 and my abilities are becoming stronger. I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to balance them out as I used to. It's really stressful and the fact that I'm alone is not helping. My parents and brother are gifted too, but I'm different and they can't relate to me.
I just hope that some day, when I'm more experienced, I won't be as troubled with my gifts. But right now, it's a struggle.