I am 23years old. And for the last 6 years have been experiencing serious spells of depression, self harm and attempted suicide. I admit that I have always been a little skeptic of 'spiritual experiences' my mother is a very spiritual person and never tries to 'push it on us'.
I am just after a little help, and maybe some guidance from people. Three and a half years ago. I had a major road traffic accident. THANKFULLY I did not injure or crash in to anyone else. The cause of this accident was entirely my own and I do not pretend otherwise. I was cut and lifted free from the vehicle by fire crew, it took over an hour and half to free me. I was then rushed to the local hospital. I was in and out of consciousness all night and cannot remember much. The accident was pretty horrific, in fact the gentleman who recovered my vehicle from the crash site, thought that I had been killed in the vehicle. The thing I need help and maybe advice or opinions from others is that I cannot remember crashing the vehicle. I can't remember actually hitting the wall, losing control or anything. I want to know what caused me to not remember? And also, I had no injuries a few cuts on my head, and very black eyes and bruised chest from the safety belt. What protected me. Could it of been something 'spiritual'?
Next thing. Since I tried to take my own life last year I have been visited by a man always at night when I wake, but I never see his face it's like he is a shadow. He never talks to me or does anything, just stands at the foot of my bed just silhouetted. A few months ago he came with two ladies, they stood either side of him. Again the said nothing and I could only see the outline of them, just a black shadow. I never feel scared of him or his companions. They do not frighten me, and mostly I wake to see them there and then go straight back to sleep.
Last night I didn't see 'my man' as I now call him. But I saw what I think was a lady. Just her eyes and her nose and cheek bones, no colours just black and white. I think I am going mad. I am not scared of these I just don't know why I am seeing them, and what they are. Are they looking after me? Warning me? Who is it?