I don't really know where to begin. I've always had an unnatural fear of spirits, death etc. & really hate the dark. I've been to 2 physics, both have told me that I have a strong physic ability but I had never had an experience but it completely freaked me out. After that, whenever I heard of someone dying, I would have horrible dreams, restlessness and a very strong feeling that I was being watched all the time. On 2 particular occasions, there was suspicious circumstances surrounding the deaths, I felt a great evil and fear all the time, I'd wake up in the middle of the night terrified, sweating and absolutely petrified to get out of my bed but I could never remember what I had dreamt about. One night I woke up completely startled and every time I closed my eyes, I felt like there was a persons face right in front of mine, it was a horrible experience. Now I don't know if I am physic and have just completely blocked it or if its just an anxiety thing.
Sometimes when I close my eyes, these faces flash in my head, ones I've never seen before and then completely random thoughts cross my mind. Like I wasn't even thinking about but they just came into my mind.
I feel fuzzy all the time, like I have a wall up in my head, I can't think straight.
But there is one other reason I think I may be. I'm with my partner a long time, and I've always just had this feeling deep down that we wouldn't be together forever, I wouldn't grow old with him. Recently I started getting images of his funeral, a car crash and cancer as well which makes me think maybe I'm just worried that something will happen to him. But its not a panicked feeling, its eerie, like its going to happen and I don't know when. I had thought to myself then that I didn't really know what he would have wanted if god forbid something did happen, for some reason in particular what songs he would want. Very strange feeling.
Then we were driving home from our friends house and he played a song in the car and he said to me this is the song I want played at my funeral. I was a bit freaked out and I just told him to stop talking silly. Then he said to me very very calmly 'I think my days are numbered, I don't think I have much time left here' I hadn't said anything to him about what I had seen so naturally I was completely freaked out. He just said I know there is something wrong with me. We went through the motions, go to the doc etc. Everything will be fine.
I know I've just written down a load of random information but I just have this odd feeling about myself, like there is something there behind the surface. I don't know if its all in my head or I'm going nuts! But I just wanted to put it out there to see if anyone had any advice of information, or if they could tell me its all just a coincidence! I'm very confused and don't really know what to think. Thanks