I'm a male in my early twenties that has for as long as I can remember been dealing with the feeling of not belonging. I don't have any normal human interactions with the people in my life. My friends and family all love and try to support me but I can't find comfort in their friendship. I often times find myself alone in my room meditating and trying to sort out the things in my head.
I have had a lot of strange occurrences in my life that has turned me to this site and after reading some of your stories decided to ask my questions here. So for that to work I suppose to anyone reading this you would like to know more about me.
At times I can sense what people are feeling and know what they are going to do within minutes of meeting or talking to them. It may not happen right there on the spot but if I sense the person is up to no good they usually aren't. I have steered clear of befriending people because of a feeling and have almost always made the right choice as they later did something that would have gotten me fired from my job or in trouble with someone somewhere had I been associating with them. My friends, those who I haven't distanced myself from, have started to take note of this.
One of my friends brought me to a proclaimed psychic who, without divulging any of my information, told me she knows that I can read people and have a strong spirit dwelling deep within that I haven't fully accessed yet and that it's an old spirit who's been around a very long time. It freaked me out. At an earlier point in life while dealing with a patient in an asylum, the patient made similar remarks while adding a comment I will always remember. He stated to me that "I see you old soul, and the ones who follow." His comment was made very randomly as we were talking about his day and nothing anything supernatural. I don't know what to make of any of this.
I hope that someone out there can help me try to understand what may be going on. It's not affecting my life horribly or anything I just think its time I understand this better. I go out and do normal things a guy my age would do but always find myself reverting back to seclusion from time to time. I believe it has something to do with the way I feel like I can sense peoples emotions, their wants and needs without them telling to me anything of such matter. I've been thinking perhaps it overloads me at times and its my way of recharging myself. I want to know if there's something more to me then I understand right now. I've always felt different. Like I'm in the wrong time, been refereed to as being wise beyond my years, and that I just don't generally belong. It's not just a stage as I've felt this way stronger and stronger, as the years pass my whole life.
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