Through the years, I would say since my teens, I have had, well things happen to me. For instance after going to a wedding that brought together a very large amount of family I went home to rest. I remember it was summer and I was laying on the couch watching t.v. All of the sudden, I felt cold air (in the middle of the summer) and the hair on my arm raised so slowly. I felt like someone was in the room. Jokingly I said, "I'm tired and I don't want to play." I fell asleep and dreamt of my great grandfather that night. He looked healthy which was odd to me because I only remembered him being bed ridden at home and very ill. I was way too young to remember him healthy. He was looking at me while holding his son and asked me to tell him that he said he was fine, he was okay and that he loved him.
Another incident I had was after my uncle died. I was unable to go to his funeral due to an abusive husband. I had just heard the news and was crying. I went into my room to go to sleep and I saw him in the closet. It was dark and I tried to look harder, he disappeared and that night I dreamt he told me that he understood why I couldn't go to his funeral and that it was okay. That he loved me and that he knew I loved him.
I just want to know. Am I seeing spirits technically if they are in my dreams? Also, sometimes I wonder if I'm meditating and don't know it. There have been times where I have "woken up" and I'm above myself watching me sleep. I have had a man try to pull me out of my body? I told him I didn't want to go and he disappeared into my wall. Many times through the years I feel something holding me down while I sleep I can't move, and am paralyzed as I try to my hardest to wake up. Usually in these instances I start praying the Lords prayer to protect myself. I'm not scared of some of the things that happen to me. Although I intentionally block off some things because I am not understanding what is going on (being held down or someone trying to pull me out of me). Can someone tell me what's been happening to me and if all of it is safe? Is this a psychic ability of some sort? I posted this before but deleted my email account and needed to start a new account on this site. I would like to know how to open myself up to these experiences again.