When I was a young child I could sense things around me. I would hear things that would sound like the chipmunks talking, very high pitched voices would be talking to me. My mom said I would be having conversations by myself. My grandmother's house was the most active houses, which freaked me out. I would see and hear things every time I was there and I hated going there. I was SO scared as a child, I would sleep at the end of my mom's bed, sometimes she would find me sleeping on the floor next to her bed. My mom once gave me a doll that was given to her by someone and that doll would always be talking to me and I literally would hide that doll in my toy box and tell my mom that I didn't like her and that I didn't want her anymore. She really scared me to death. When I think about how I was as a child I was not normal. I was SO scared all the time because I did experience negative things which put me in a state of extreme fear. So, I asked God to please stop all this and make it go away and somehow I willed all this to stop. I seemed to block it all out. It seemed to stop around age 12. I had some experiences throughout my life like when my cousin was going to leave a party and out of the blue I told him to stay and not go, I didn't want him to leave because I just felt that something bad was going to happen but I didn't know why and that night I saw a beautiful white glowing light around him like an aura. Sadly, later on when he left, I found out that he was shot and he died. I've also had other many other paranormal experiences.
I recently went to an astrologer who told me that I was very psychic and that I needed to unblock my abilities. He says he sees me helping people with my gifts. I have some experiences now and then but I know I have really put a block on what was once a open communication all the time. I guess I have fear of the unknown, mostly negative things. I just hate the negative side of all this. How do I unblock the psychic side of myself?