When I was a young boy, perhaps 4 or 5 years old, I remember seeing short shadow figures. It happened often, but my earliest memory of this type of experience is when I was camping in the mountains with my family, and I got to sleep in the RV with my grandparents. I remember waking up in the middle of the night, and felt like I knew they were outside. I peeked through the blinds, and there were a ton of them in the woods. Some were in the trees and the rest were just standing at the trunks, staring at me. It was such a frightening feeling that since then I knew they weren't good.
But most importantly, the last time I had seen one was when I was 7 or 8 (I'm terrible at remembering my exact age.) I was in my room at the end of a rather long hallway that was poorly lit, and I had turned the light off as I was leaving my room, and one of these shadows had chased me out and down the hallway. I ran screaming to my Mom who was in our den trying to describe to her what it was that I was seeing. This was the first and last time I had felt attacked, or at least severely threatened by one of these. I also remember it having a gray misty essence above it, and I haven't been able to find out it's significance.
Anyways, once I told my Mom, she put me in my Sister's room and had her sit with me while I drew a picture of what I had seen. Once I did this, she took me to the living room and had me put the picture in the fireplace and she burned it. She told me that I will no longer see them. Since then I haven't seen any shadow figures, but I have seen what I think may have been ghosts. They are usually made of a misty essence, sort of like what I had seen over the shadow person. But this essence is in the shape and has the same characteristics of an actual person. But they fade very quickly. The last I had seen one was when I was driving past the local cemetery at night on my way home, and it was a woman in a dress.
These experiences as well as a few others have been the most memorable for me. And what I am asking is by burning the picture of this shadow entity, have I developed a closing to the spiritual realms? My experiences happen very seldom and when I least expect them. I had seen a medium this year who at the beginning of my reading immediately recognized my sensitivity. And confirmed the existence of these shadow entities for he has seen them himself. The problem is that I am now 21 years old, and I am gravitating toward the mysteriousness of life. I feel like it is time for me to develop a part of me that is very important in how I live my life. I feel a very strong calling to help people, and have realized that helping others is the most beautiful and rewarding feeling I could ever imagine. But I don't know how to open myself up more. I feel very inexperienced and sense a great amount of doubt preventing me from opening up.
Can anyone give any advice on how to be open again? I have read that shadow entities are those who cannot move on, and though they seem to be frightening, I was told by the medium that darkness is very much a part of our world as well as light. I would like to open up and maybe help encourage them to move on. I feel that by opening up to them, I would be removing the block I had put when I burned the picture, and I would be able to contact my guides and other entities, which could help me develop my sensitivity.
Please forgive me if any of this is poorly worded. Thank you for any advice.