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I'm In A Psychic Block

 

Alright, so I'm in the middle of a mental block. I have no idea how to turn my abilities back on, or how to open up again, and it's freaking me out. I feel like I'm stuck. I'm 15 years old, my name is Willow. I was born on Friday the 13th. Since I was around 4 years old I've had psychic experiences/abilities, and at age 9 they started to strengthen. Between the ages of 10 and 13 and a half I reached the peak of my abilities, so far. I was my own person, and I didn't care what others thought of me.

I used to be quite the empath, so to speak. But for a long time I was only like that with the people closest to me. I remember I had a best friend, Gracie. She was more of a sister. I knew her like the back of my own hand. She was always constantly in pain emotionally, and for me, it radiated off of her. I felt her pains, I felt her passions, I felt her fears, I felt her love, etc. I was so sensitive to her emotions, and pretty sensitive to others' too, just not as much. You could almost say I could read her mind, in an emotional aspect. But her pain hurt me more, I think, than herself. Upon feeling these terrible things, I spiraled into a deep depression that lasted for about 1 year or 2, maybe.

My friends and I used to do a lot of séances and I, personally, had a lot of my own visions, experiences, and premonitions. I always had this ringing in my ears, like this buzzing trying to get my attention. At night, I would hear whispering, and a lot of the time I could only make out fragments. Along with that, I also used to have these fits of hysteria and outrage because I would become washed over with extreme amounts of energy, I can't explain the feeling. It was both incredible and terrifying. This happened frequently. But during these outcries, I would laugh uncontrollably, scream, dig my nails into my skin, rock back and forth, etc. I couldn't control it. The energy I was feeling was just way too overwhelming. Now, however, I have gained control of it and well, the bottom line is that I don't let the energy in whatsoever. I've learned to completely block it out.

I remember I used to predict things, usually having to do with the weather and disasters. Once, my friends were over and we were just hanging out, snacking. When I was younger I was often times left home alone because my mother worked long and late shifts at work. Anyway, I got this really, overwhelming bad feeling in my gut. I screamed at everyone to hurry into my mom's bathroom (it didn't have any windows), and I grabbed bottles of water, canned food, a radio, some batteries, my cell phone, some pillows and blankets, and other essentials. I locked the doors, and shut the bathroom door behind me. 5 minutes later, we could hear the pitter patter of rain on the roof, and then it started thundering. I turned on the radio to learn that there were bad tornado warnings.

When I was 11, my mom's boyfriend bought me a Ouija board and naturally the first thing we asked it was "What's your name?" It replied, "Belial." I had no idea who that was at that time, and neither did my friends or parents. I just recently researched the name. My friend asked him, "Do you want to go outside?" There was no response, but right afterwards every light in my mom's bedroom (the room directly across from us) turned on by themselves. One of the lamps that turned on was unplugged. Anyways, that was it for the night as you can imagine. Haha. Two days later, on a Sunday, two of my closest friends and I decided to play it again. The only thing it told us was that 1 person we knew would die each month. Surely, the very next day my best friend's brother got into a motorcycling accident and died on impact. Poor thing, he was only 17. (R.I.P. Harshal.) The following months I watched as people both friends and family of my closest friends were taken away from them. I was the only one untouched, no one I knew died. This continued and didn't stop until the new year.

Around the time I got my Ouija board, I also bought a Talisman. It's commonly known as the Tree of Life. I put it away, and kind of forgot about it. I just found it a month ago, and decided to activate and charge it- energy wise. A couple days ago, it started to get darker? And I have no idea why. But it's darker, nonetheless. I would really like someone to explain to me why. And don't say it's the metal, or something like that. I know that's not the cause because it happened in like a day. Really rapidly, it started getting darker. Weird.

The reason I'm using all of these examples is because I was psychic, and I didn't do anything special or call upon those things. They just naturally occurred. These happenings are normal for me, and a part of me I could say. Being psychic is just in my nature. I'm not saying that I don't have much to learn, or that I know it all. Just that to an extent, I was naturally psychic. But now, it seems as though all of those things have been turned off, an effect of myself I'm guessing. I think I've subconsciously pushed everything out because secretly I was scared of it, and realized that most normal people weren't psychic. And well, that's the thing I wanted to be more than anything else in the world at the time. To be normal, like everyone else. Now, however, I know that that's not who I am. But how do I open my mind up to my original state again? How do I turn it on and unblock everything? I'm in desperate need of anyone's opinions, advice and help. Please, I'm begging. Lately, I can feel it calling to me subconsciously. That need to be turned back on, because it's who I am and a part of me. I've spiraled into a depression of my own, the past couple months and I have a feeling it's because of this. I'm begging you. PLEASE HELP.: (Everything is gone, who I am is gone. It's been taken away by none other than myself.

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Timfaraos (426 posts)
 
5 years ago (2015-05-04)
You might be psychic. Jesus and the saints were psychic too!... But NEVER NEVER did they do seances, ouja board or foretune telling, and never had talismans! (except for a crucifix). These things are forbidden occult practices, which attract unkown spirits, and demons in disguise to you! God warns us of these in the old testament: child, don't do it, you'll get hurt!... If we put our hand in the fire, we get burnt! And then we run around on psychic websites asking for help LOL! Also, meditation opens us up spread eagle- wide open, to ANY spirit in the universe to attach itself to us or enter us... Because we EMPTY ourselves from thoughts an emotions, leaving the door wide open! It's safer to PRAY, because in prayer we KNOW what spirit we're talking to, and inviting to us (Jesus, Mary, an Angel or saint), and this spirit creates a sheild around us, and protects us day and night. In prayer, contrary to meditation, we are FULL of thoughts and emotions, which poor out of us like a river, in front of the throne of God! For prayer to be more effective, before we pray, we should read the bible, or meditate on things of God: Jesus, the Angels, our personal problems etc. Good luck. God bless+
cyopathic (5 stories) (513 posts)
+1
9 years ago (2011-11-25)
Well Willow, sounds quite like a problem. I'm having the same problem, but only because I choose to. I wanted to stop seeing spirits, to stop dealing with whispers and to stop feeling like a maniac. It's starting to come back, like a train. It takes a while to start moving and takes some time to stop.

I would like to agree with Geo1990. You can't just play with a Ouija board, there is more to it. But I don't want to say every spirit is bad. S/he/they can tell you events, but I'll just get off that topic. I can't agree with everything Geo1990 has said, like the names of angels. I'm not really sure if angels have pacific names based on there last letters in there name.

As for getting back your abilities, they never left you. We've all been scared of these types of things. (Whoever tells you they weren't is lying) When you said,"That need to be turned back on, because it's who I am." You lost a special part of yourself, something to set you aside from the rest and I don't blame you. You just need to believe again, but before you ask 'how can I do that?' You might want to familiarize yourself again, and careful around trying to push this on yourself. It will take time, it's like starting up a train.

(You can contact me if you would like to talk more about it, Brokencar1 [at] yahoo.com)
Geo1990 (39 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-11-25)
Belial is not an angelic name, (all angelic names end with EL or ON) and you have contacted something you should not have. I suggest you cleanse yourself, cleanse your home and cover yourself in white light. Playing with the Ouija board without reading about it first is totally dangerous and people should not be dieing because you have a certain ability. Anything can channel through a Ouija board and you would not know if it was telling the truth about its name or not!
Becky666 (124 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-11-25)
I can help you get them back faster... Email me 😉

warrierprincess13 [at] gmail.com
WillowTree (2 stories) (12 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-11-22)
I really wish I knew or could remember how I got them, but honestly it was just so long ago. I started to have psychic experiences at around age 4, which is also as far back as I can remember in general. I think my brain waves are just at a little higher frequency then others. Not to brag, but I'm a pretty smart kid. In kindergarten my teacher wanted me to skip 2 grades and by 1st grade I was at a math/reading level of an average 5th grader. Sooo maybe that's it, but that doesn't explain the block. I think maybe I just need to stop thinking about it so much. I can feel them coming back to me slowly.
Last night a spirit came to me, and I was able to feel it's presence. It also came to my in my dreams. So I think my little block is near the end of it's life:) Thanks everyone for the tips!
j-torrez (3 stories) (53 posts)
+1
9 years ago (2011-11-22)
If you have not yet achived to regain your powers remember how it was you got them last time. Sure you were born with them but there was something that made them surface to a more consious level. Also your talkisman might be turning darker because it is absorbing the evil around you so that it does not harm you. This evil is what caused the fear it is what tricked you to want to be normal. This evil want's to control you. I have been thought the same situation and curiously I was around your same age at the time. If you have any other questions, need to talk, etc. You can wright to me at: janet_7673 [at] live.com
WillowTree (2 stories) (12 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-11-21)
Thank you guys a lot! I'm definitely going to try meditating and just relaxing. I do think that it's the fear causing this. Every time I begin to let it in again and feel the negative energies I immediately shut it out because I'm scared. But I need to face these fears if I want to move on and strengthen my gift. I had no idea that others had blocks, too. I thought maybe I was losing this forever. What a relief haha. Does anyone have an idea why my talisman is getting darker? Any idea at all? I'm really confused about that.
DAYDREAMER95 (12 stories) (52 posts)
+1
9 years ago (2011-11-20)
I get those blocks too. I was having one until this past Friday I had a bad feeling. I am a pretty good empath when my abilities are not blocked. But I believe my powers go dormant for the soul reason of charging and getting stronger. I just let it run it's course knowing they will come back. I enjoy the days without my abilities, because with them I seem to be more worn out and sad. So just let it run it's course, and they will come back eventually. Try meditating or concentrating on bringing them back.
jae (1 posts)
+1
9 years ago (2011-11-19)
hi willowtree
I don't think its gone, merely resting. I've experienced blocks like that, they are quite distressing, and frustrating when you are aware you've built your own barriers. I wonder if that's why it makes them so hard to break down. Your powers will still be there I think its just finding a way to access them. Perhaps its a case of removing the fear. If it was fear that prompted you to close down and now I think its also fear that's stopping you from being able to open back up. Have you tried any mediatation/visualisation type exercises? I regularly flutuate with wanting to be normal! But I think its impossible. Right now I can sense something but can't narrow it down is really frusrating! Hope you manage to sort things out j
theunknown (1 stories) (3 posts)
 
9 years ago (2011-11-18)
I have no idea what to say: (I usually do! 😢 sorry I always have something to say but now I don't hmmmmm I'm having the same problem!

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