I will admit early on that I have read several of the posts and articles on this site and am truly not sure where or if I fit. I will keep specifics for (hopefully) further conversations since I am not sure what is an ability and what is just me being mental.
For as long as I can remember I have never been alone, even when no one is actually around. I have often heard voices in my head. I have seen animals and people who aren't really there on several occasions. I often have dreams that come true, although they are usually about something I am doing and often foretelling. I avoid places and people that instantly give me a 'fight or flight' feeling, even if it is only a field. I see light, small things in my peripheral vision on an almost nightly basis. I have shared dreams with others, some people that I didn't know very well. I have been places where I have both seen and heard past events as if they were happening right then.
Recently I found out that my Mom has had similar experiences. She never talked about any of this before, and she has shut herself off out of fear. I do not know if anyone else in my family has experienced anything similar because they don't talk about anything that might make them look or feel abnormal. I usually feel abnormal, but I think I always have. I feel like there is something I can do to better understand, but part of me wonders if I am not just crazy.
I truly need some advice and guidance. I have found that my children seem to be more sensitive than I thought kids their age would be, especially my sons, and I would really like to be able to guide them in how to live with and accept their gifts, whatever they may be.
I am lost but not lost.
Anyone can be spiritual on the other hand. I am not a Christian -- I know God is real, but he and I have an odd relationship. I'm a lot more arcane than most Reiki practitioners or healers, and I mainly work on focusing my energy, making it tangible, manipulating the things around me on a level that has been haneously-obvious in the past. My goal is to bring myself at a point of unity with my body, mind and spirit after building those parts up to their respectice apexes. Consolidation is an exhale -- remember to never stop breathing.
You'll find there are an infinite number of routes you can choose to take with this -- it's literally limited to your imagination. If you prefer to imagine your form as an animal, or denote what you feel by colors that become visible after a time, or to channel energy in the tradition of a monk in eastern ideologies, you may, but whatever the case, realize every state of mind has a consequence, and know that you will feel things pass into you at first that can range from annoying to debilitating. The advice of prayer is from experience.