I'm 30 years old and just recently started to maybe try to understand some of my feelings. Some of the things I might explain just seem so crazy to me and please excuse my rambling.
For as long as I remember, I have always had spirit experiences in addition to overwhelming feelings of everyone's emotions. Growing up with a single mom and as an only child, I've always been by myself. My mother was always very open to the other world/deceased. We always had candles out for Saints she would pray to (I was raised catholic) but nothing crazy. We weren't some voodoo family or anything. I don't know if this somehow made my mind open to whatever it is I am trying to explain. I've had so many experiences with ghosts/spirits. Everywhere I go, it's as if they follow me. I always ALWAYS see and feel things.
I am recently divorced and got my own place. Within a couple of days of moving in I had a dream in which I was very much awake and saw a sprit in my closet. Just standing there. It lasted for what felt about 5 minutes. Since then I have moved into a new home and am experiencing the same thing. In this new place however, I haven't seen anything as prominent as the other spirit, if that makes sense? But I do see and hear things all the time. The BIG difference in this new house is the overwhelming feelings and emotions I am getting.
Here's the thing. I have always been a very intuitive person. My senses and feelings are so overwhelming I seriously thought there was something emotionally or medically wrong with me. If someone has a problem or is sad the feelings consume me. I can feel people's feelings/emotions. Any feeling someone is manifesting I can feel it as if it were my own. This is not a good thing. In fact, it's sometimes consumes me and I just have to get away from it all. For example, I just found out yesterday my ex-best friends husband was leaving her. We are no longer friends and I have been sick all day today thinking about the pain she is going through. Literally sick! I want to vomit.
Now leads to the additional emotions. As I'm feeling this about my friend, I start feeling this overwhelming emotion of a spirit in my new house. And I get visuals. I see a little girl and little boy. But I instantly know the girl and boy are both alive. The feeling of sadness I get is from the spirit in the house sad to see the children gone and not living there anymore. It's this overwhelming feeling of me being 100% certain of this information.
Is there something wrong with me!? I don't know how to handle these emotions/feelings. And the craziest thing is, now that I think of it, for as long as I can remember I've seen things and felt things, but yet, it has NEVER frightened me. Seeing "ghosts" does not scare me at all. It's just now I am by myself and my mind isn't as boggled down with other people in the house. It's as if I am now more susceptible to seeing things. Is that weird?
I started reading some things about being an Empath and certain breathing techniques to clear your mind and I literally had to stop reading because trying to clear my mind almost gave me an anxiety attack. It was as if the breathing techniques were opening up some flood gate. Am I deranged!?