Sorry for the length. I guess there are a lot of things wrong with me. If you'll just bear with me and read the article, I feel like I really do need someone's help. I've always been "psychic". I have dreams or visions, whatever you want to call them, and they come true. It's scary.
When I was six, I had a very terrible experience. But it all happened in a dream. I remember I was in excruciating pain, but I do not remember anything else about the dream. I'm not even sure if it was me in the dream or if I was someone else. I woke up screaming and crying and my parents held me and comforted me, but they don't remember that ever happening. I told them something bad was going to happen, but they didn't believe me.
As a result, whenever I knew something was going to happen, I never told anyone. When I was about eight or nine, I saw my grandfather's death. After he died, I felt responsible. I've always been big into the supernatural. I was a devout Christian until I was in seventh/eighth grade. Then a few of my friends started dabbling in Wicca, and one of them asked me to join their coven. I told him that I didn't really know anything about it and asked him why he would want me to join. He told me that he had noticed when he was around me that I could control/influence the weather, especially the wind, and that he had a sense that I was psychic. I declined joining, but he invited me to one of their meetings to observe, and I went.
I don't remember what they did, but I just remember I was kind of scared, because I had always been taught that witchcraft was bad and that psychic senses were sent from the Devil, not God. And I remember he was fire, my other friend was water, and then I was supposed to be the last one or something. It was weird. But when they were doing whatever, it felt right to be that Air/Earth person. And the wind started howling like there was a storm and I freaked out. I'm not saying I caused it, but I think I did.
And then, there are the things. I see them all the time. They're each different, but I remember I woke up maybe a year ago and I opened my eyes and standing in my room was a guy. I blinked and he was gone, but it's just things like that. And when I'm scared or angry the lights flicker, and I'll walk by rooms and televisions will come on or go off.
Also, lately, I've been sleepwalking. It's like my subconscious is trying to get through. I'll find messages written in random places. And lately, I've felt as though there's someone else here, that's not just me. I'll look in the mirror, and I won't see me, it's like I'm seeing someone else.
The scariest thing though, is the man. When I'm asleep and I've already seen what's going to happen tomorrow or I haven't dreamt at all, I'll see this guy, and he's just so malignant, it's like he wants to hurt me. When I'm up at night, and I'm alone, or everyone else is asleep, I'll just feel this sense of evil descend upon me. It's scary. Last night, after reading some articles on this site, I thought I'd try meditating or projecting, and I got this vision of the guy and it's like every time I see him, I get more details about his life.
I didn't ask for any of this. Is there anybody who even remotely can help? I've tried blocking my mind, but nothing seems to work. When I do that it's like he gets madder.
I don't know if my ancestry has anything to do with it, but on my mom's side, I'm descended from a Native American chieftain's daughter who supposedly had the gift, from what I've read about her. And my mom has the same thing where she'll dream something and it will happen.