My name is Susan and I have an ongoing story. It is ongoing because I still live this way, what I am about to tell you, today.
I was four when I gotten hit by a car in a city. That's when I started to really remember things. I was five when someone starting talking to me and I knew was not an imaginary friend. I then learned about God before I went to church at age seven. I believe it was God but the talking didn't stay. My mom had me checked out for mental conditions only for me to pass every one with flying colors. I also knew everything before it would happen. I knew if my parents were fighting while I was in school and knew they still would be when I'd get home with knowing what it was about.
Over time I knew about people's past and future by just talking to them. I knew if they were hiding secrets and what they were. I can always sense their feeling and know things I shouldn't.
Now I am an adult I know my own future as well as everyone else's. Past and present, why I was given this gift I don't know. I hate it and want to be normal. I know who is calling or about to knock and even what they want. I answer questions before even asked. I don't know what it is just that I have no reason to know why I have this "gift" and what it is for. I do know the closer to God I am the worse it gets. Religion has scared me because of it. I freak out my boyfriend when I always answer things I have no way of knowing or when people go to call him and I tell him everything.
Half the time I don't realize that person didn't ask me the question yet, I heard them ask it regardless. Or comment back about what they haven't commented on yet but was about to.
I cannot help that I do this and half the time I don't even realize I do this until it is too late and the people I am talking to are freaked out. Preachers do not believe me about what I can do and they ask me to leave when I ask for advice. One church said I was possessed with demons and continued to say there is no such thing as a gift like that. Other people will say that it is more than one gift and that is impossible!
Please help with advise, I am lost. I am 28 tomorrow and need leading. Thank you for reading.