Ever since I was little I could sense spirits around me. I was afraid of them at first since everyone said they were scary growing up. I never felt like I was in danger though. There was always a feeling of safety and security.
My mom said I talked to myself as a kid and I would sing songs about random people she didn't understand. I went to a funeral when I was around 6 and my mom was giving her condolences to the family. She wasn't paying much attention to me and an old man in a black suite and white hair came up to me and gave me a white rose to throw in when we buried the body of a young girl. He didn't say a word to me but I understood him somehow. My mom asked me where I got the white rose and when I described the man she asked if there was someone like that by the person organizing the burial but apparently no one like that was present or seen by anyone else. I saw him again between 2 people on the other side of the casket after I threw in the rose but never again.
When I was around 11 I was attacked by an incubus. It was soft and gentle with me. It never came back after that one night. Last week another incubus came at night that was more rough and different from before. I remember screaming in my mind "why are you here?" and he laughed saying I invited him, but I yelled back "hell no I didn't invite you!" suddenly there was this bright light behind him and I could see it pulling him away from me until he vanished completely along with the light.
Is there someone or something out there protect me? Is it a spirit guide? How can I know what it is? How can I become more familiar and know my protector more personally? Can anyone else's spirit guide tell me about my protector?