For as long as I can remember, whenever I have been around dying people I would get this light headed feeling. It's like I am there, but I am not me. I am not in control, but I do what I am supposed to. It's like I am on the verge of passing out, but I never do. It always happens when I am in a hospital. Sometimes it happens when I am around a lot of old people, like nursing homes. Then it occasionally happens when I am out in public around a lot of people.
About six months ago my uncle died from a heart attack. I only ever met the man like 4-5 times and I thought of him maybe once a year. Then about a week before he died I started thinking of him and got that light headed feeling almost 2-3 times a day for until he died.
About a month and a half ago I was just hanging out at the mall shopping with my best friend and suddenly I got this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I turn around and there is this old lady with who I presume to be a grand kid or some relative. It didn't take much to know that she wasn't in the best of health. She had an oxygen tank, she could barely get around even with a walker, and she just looked like your typical old person. Then I look at her face, into her eyes, and I got that light headed feeling and I just knew that she was going to die soon.
However it's not all bad, about two weeks ago one my good friends got hit by a drunk driver. It was really bad; he was on life support, had a smashed up face, punctured lungs, and lacerated stomach and liver. The doctors weren't hopeful and everyone said that he wouldn't make it. I went to go see him to see how he was doing. All the way through the hospital I had that lightheaded feeling, then once I got into his room it was gone, I knew that he would make it. Now he is off of life support, lungs fixed, stomach fixed, liver fixed, and the doctors are finally hopeful. He still has a ways to go but his chances have increased considerably.
And that's not all I feel, I often get a feeling at random times that there is someone watching me when I am all alone. Also sometimes when I get super relaxed or on the verge of sleep its like I can feel this warm comforting hand stroking my arms, face, and legs.
I was raised as a Mormon, and as most know Mormons are VERY religious. I was always taught that abnormal abilities such as being psychic are bad and temptations of the devil. I have always tried to ignore these things that have happened to me, but ever since I have stopped being an active Mormon I have become more curious about and open to these feelings. This is the first time I have ever researched about them or even told anyone about them. I just want to know what they are and if they are normal. Do they sound like psychic abilities or am I just crazy?