Its Time To Open The Door I Have Been Told

Over the past few months I keep being told it's time to open the door, I keep getting visits from sprits in a sense that I can hear them feel them but cannot yet see who it is, but can feel who it may be and a quick vision comes over me, my grandfather Michael Patterson is one of most felt and he says all the time that's its time and it's ok to open the door now, (what does this mean?) I get the feeling that it my time to open that special gift I have always known I had but have been too afraid to overcome my fear of the unknown. Example two nights ago I got up to put my child back to sleep went back to bed and didn't go straight to sleep but had a surge through my body and feel I was being pulled backwards into the lounge but no one was pulling me then I was in the lounge? What the F*##k happened. I know since I have moved my rocking chair from the front room into my bedroom my grandmother has moved into our lounge room she used to sit in the rocking chair at night and there is such a strong feeling over the house at night and early morning, is she trying to tell me it's time I get that feeling from her she's starting to get angry that I am choosing not to see her. I really need some help, I know it's time and I could also be up for de-masking a dark cloud in the way. I will suddenly get inner sense that I can connect but then tell it all to go away I'm afraid my fear is what's stopping me I know that's my problem, I can see the other side and can see who's waiting for me, it's my grandad (who was not my real grandfather) but he never had his own children and I was the first grandchild to come along he took me on as his own) I guess what I'm trying to say is I know I'm close and I have organized to join a spiritual guidance/mediumship class with Reverend Marilyn O'Sullivan it's a group of 10 or less and she claims to help in all spiritual sectors, I feel as though I am meant to do this to then be able to lose the fear and open the door, but I keep telling myself why can't I lose the fear it shouldn't be hard I am not fearful right now.