I remember being so afraid that I wasn't able to be alone in a room. I remember having to share room with my sister because I couldn't fall asleep. I remember having a conversation with my mom where she asked me if the people I saw talked to me.
But what I don't remember? I don't remember what I told my mother. I don't remember seeing anyone. I don't remember what my family has told me for years that I have done.
But what my family has told me, is that I would be so afraid that I was shaking, that I told them I saw people that they couldn't see, that I would scream so load the neighbors would come knocking on the door.
Why don't I remember this? Is it possible that I have repressed it?
I don't believe in ghosts or spirits or anything like that, I really don't. And I have a hard time believing my family when they try to bring up the subject. But I know they aren't lying to me.
My mother went for a reading at a psychic when she was younger. And everything that woman said has come true. She told my mom she'd get two daughters and one son, which she now has. She told my mother that a male she loved would have something that wasn't good in his stomach, a month later my father got that. And so on. She also told my mother one of her daughters would have a gift. That she would discover it when she was very young and that she be so scared she'd repress it. Could that be true? Could that be about me?
And if so, if I have repressed it, does that mean that I have lost it? Because just because I'd repress it, that wouldn't make the people go away, right? Does that mean that I see them all the time but make myself forget instantly every time? Or have I lost it completely? If I haven't, is there a way that I can resurface it?
But honestly, I don't know if I would want to resurface it if I could. Ignorance is bliss right?
(The reason I did not put this in the ghost-site-thingy is because I am not sure that it is ghosts or if it is something else. I mean, maybe I'm sick or imagining things, or my family is playing a trick on me or something.)