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Different From Others, Inhuman Almost


My name is Courtney and I am 15 years old. I am a very mature, quiet-natured, seemingly normal person. However, I have always felt so different from everyone around me. I love my family so much and I enjoy being with them, but I do not feel connected to them, or "at home." I am not a sad, lonely girl; I have a family that I love, friends that I laugh and have fun with, but I always feel like there is more out there for me.

I was quiet when I was a toddler, when I was a kid, and still am as a teenager. I'm not shy though, I just like to sit and observe things. I watch the way people act, how they communicate, why they always seem to make things complicated, and I just wonder to myself, "Why are people so obnoxious? Why are they so cruel to others and place such importance on insignificant matters of life?" Learning about history, about how humanity has done such awful things, makes me so sad. I honestly do not understand how people can be so mean to others, whether its 100s of years ago or in present day. It does not make sense.

I know I am different. I feel it, and it seems strangers do too. When I go anywhere; the mall, grocery store, the library, people look at me differently. I do not know if I can explain this right, but people just seem to watch me. People seem to have a natural instinct to trust me, confide in me. I just feel like I am on some other level and others can see it yet they don't know it. I feel alone sometimes.

I have a history with different psychic abilities: Dreams that come true, other-worldly dreams, computers and tvs going haywire according to my emotions, extreme deja-vu, sensing other's emotions or what they're about to say or do. Deja-vu affects me the most because it happens so often, so severely. Simple things, like passing by an open field, lakes, old (really old) antiques, many little things, give me the strangest feeling. Sometimes I feel sad almost, like I miss and long for something that I do not even really remember. Past life maybe?

Other-worldly dreams; I have such intense, vivid dreams very often. At least once a week. I could never explain all of them here, but I honestly feel like I am traveling to other worlds. Sometimes there is a cord attached to me somehow, and I just float for a while until I am at some other place. I am so sad when I wake up sometimes, even when I do not remember what exactly happened, I just know I felt more "at home."

I have this friend that I just met within the past two years. She is my best friend, and we have a special connection. It's almost like we share the same thoughts, have the same experiences. The deja-vu, feeling different from everyone else, everything is the same between us. She was born one day after me, she has just moved here from another country about two months before we met. It's like we were meant to meet. After talking about all of this, we have both done so much research about it, but we never find anything. We feel like we are not completely human, that our souls are not of this world. We like to think there are others out there, that maybe there is a mini population of people like us. Star people maybe? I've read a little about them, and have been told by more than one professional psychic that I am a crystal child. Fallen angels? I don't know if those are real, it sounds crazy to me, but I am willing to learn about anything.

I feel like there is so much more to say, I have so many strange, unexplainable experiences, but this is the best I could sum it up. I just feel different, I feel like I have a purpose. And I would really like to learn more because I do not think I can just live a normal life. Maybe I am crazy, maybe I'm not, but I just want to know.

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izzybella06 (4 stories) (15 posts)
11 years ago (2013-07-22)
I know this story is really old, but I was just looking through all of my old comments and when I saw this one I thought of something. PatrixieKuchiki, you said we're all "awakening" for different reasons. I don't really know anything about spiritual things like this, but what if we don't all have different reasons? What if it's the same reason for all of us? It would make sense that we're all awakening right now.

I don't know if anyone checks this story anymore, but I thought I would put my thoughts out there anyway.
Rosetta1 (1 stories) (76 posts)
11 years ago (2012-11-29)
Im the exact same way Mrodrig. I'm not antisocial but I can'thelp but feel seperated from everyone else. I feel as though I'm supposed to do something important. I don't know what it is, but it feels as though I have a purpose that, if not fulfilled, will completely cause a giant disaster of some sort. And I can be very predictable, yet unpredictable as the same time. My mom has always thought I was special, but as I get older it seems as though she regards me as not her daughter, but a new person. While I may be only 14, I can be quite mature for my age. I like to see things in multiple points of view. I always knew I was different and unlike everyone else around me, I just didn't know how much. And as I get older, the difference becomes greater and greater.
Mrodrig (2 stories) (10 posts)
11 years ago (2012-11-29)
I feel excalty the same way. I feel like I am suppose to be doing something greater. I also have a feel like I'm not from the world or dimension, it's a weird feelin like I know I don't belong here. By the way I am 23 years old and I am a empath (I just found this out)... I'm not a loner by any means I am quite social and have friends but I find myself watching them, the way they walk to each other same thing with my family I love them and I do look like that but for some reason it's like I feel adopted or something. My mom told me I was different since I was a baby she said I was VERY mature for my age. I feel this to like I'm a lot older then 23. I also feel like people look at me different I can't put my finger on it but it's differently different. Anyways I'm to this but I'll be glad to help out if I can
PatrixieKuchiki (guest)
11 years ago (2012-11-20)
Just like all of you,guys.Just like all of you... I felt some share of every story you shared around here. And somehow it pleases me to know that many are admitting up to the truth that this matter is not just "in our heads".😁
I think that everyone around here who feels those certain feelings, especially the one who posted herself, is a kind of LIGHTWORKER.
There are many kinds of Lightworkers spread around the world. There are many classifications to it. I am a Wise One. Others are Incarnated Angels/Elementals.I do suggest Googling about Doreen Virtue's book about it so all of you could identify yourselves what kind of Lightworkers you guys are.
As the song says,"It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's RIGHT" and this is how the journey goes for us Lightworkers. We might feel compelled to change the world when we honestly have no idea where to start, but what will happen will happen. We have awakened spiritually for a reason. And that reason is different for every one of you, but I hope that when you find that reason, you make the good decisions (Ex:put your psychic abilities to good use).
This is also the time of transition and spiritual maturity as you guys discover who you really are in this lifetime so it's also vital you make contact with your Spirit Guides. They will be your most patient, loving and supporting HELPERS you'll ever have, not to mention they know more accurate information than us.
It's off to enlightenment and healing humanity for us Lightworkers. Accomplishing it or not:a decision I leave to all of you.😊
sensoryguy (1 stories) (22 posts)
11 years ago (2012-10-24)
can anyone here relate to something like soul seeing? You look into a persons eyes and its almost like you read them immediately? Well if anyone can/does... Be careful because when I do that too much I notice that seeing to much of someone can effect me. Also if anyone here doesn't collect rocks you like I suggest you do! They help you feel great, I collect a rock as often as leaving the house everyday for school an coming back home with one:D an stay near plants, they are such pure life forms, with a lively essence that heal and grounds. Their amazing!
topaz (2 posts)
11 years ago (2012-09-29)
All through my life I have been different... Its took me to now to like the fact I am just me... A little bit crazy (to others). Sensitive, loving, fun to be with, be able to take the good out the bad (just gather all the s**t and through it to f***k.) Just keep what you need and be wise with what you have learned from yourself and wiser than yourself. Bad in this world is sent to try us... Get back up when it gets you down... There a great big holes through life that some like to dig for you... Hmmm are you going in?... Be you and be happy while you do it. I don't feel the need to try and explain what I am all about to others they either get me or they don't. When I talk some eyebrows do go up as if to say crack pot, I think well they must not be as in tune with life as what I am they think there goodtimes is rolled up tenner and white powder to have fun... Who is the crack pot. What a mad mad world but that's what life is all about we are hear to learn. ❤ ❤
Nagual (guest)
11 years ago (2012-09-29)
To answer your question on how people can be so cruel to each other can be medically explained. The heart has been crushed, broken so bad. That they do not suffer the normal consequences of murder, than any "sane person would do. Or so it would seem. There is no greater toll on a human, than to kill another human being. No matter what they might think of themselves. They phrase "killed in cold blood" is really accurate, concerning the fact that there is no warmth, no heart.

However, I cannot understand when humanity started to become capable of removing themselves so far from the heart. Because only trauma can put the heart in chains, something must have happened to humanity, or I should say us. That still is not healed, it is continually passed on to the next generation. Humanity is still so wounded.

Your not alone:) I am glad to see your story, because it confirms to me that I am not alone either. There are other people than me, that feel the same way. Personally I feel like I am very old, because I seem to get so much that my fellow people don't. It also alienates me, because others cannot relate

I've tried living a "normal" life, god, it stressed me so immensely that I were about to go crazy. It's not necessarily good intentions, when people come up and share their reality with you. Because they are in actuality putting luggage on you. Which they should sort out themselves. I believe the reason people come to you, me, others who are *special. Is because our backpack is almost empty. So it is quite tempting for others, to put their stuff in our backpack, instead of dealing with it themselves. It's not right to treat others as a psychiatrist. It would be much better to put up good boundaries (I'm trying to do the same) because it doesn't help them to continually get a fix outside of themselves. It's better to encourage them in solving their own problems than listening to continuous complaints.

Once I had a vision of a soul group, or really good friends you might say. Were we had just achieved some long term goal, and were looking for another task. Perhaps coming to earth is it. We are taking on the bodies, and using our energy/wisdom to awaken the dormant powers within it. Because everybody has the same potential, however, they cannot see it within themselves anymore.

The biggest thing anyone can do, is show love for another person. Although the problems I face when doing that, is either "I must be after something" in order to be so kind, they just don't believe me, or they get so attached to me that they cannot let me go. You might have experienced the same. It gets more complicated than it needs to be, I am just able to look beyond judgments (most of the time). Because there is no saint, nor devils in this world. Just people doing good and bad deeds.
izzybella06 (4 stories) (15 posts)
11 years ago (2012-09-29)
By the way, Jenna (JB98) is the friend I was talking about!

JB98 (2 stories) (6 posts)
11 years ago (2012-09-29)
Hi Courtney! I'm Jenna, I'm thirteen years old, and I have had the same experiences happen to me as they have to you. I constantly wonder if there's something about me that makes me different from everyone else. I constantly have deja-vu and sometimes I can even guess what others are about to say. I've sort of accepted the weird things that happen to me, and I've left it at that. But then when my friend told me about this website and I realized that other people experience odd things as well. I'd love to talk to you more! My email is Happylilly98 [at] if you'd like to contact me!:)
izzybella06 (4 stories) (15 posts)
11 years ago (2012-09-27)
I'm exactly the same as you. I'm thirteen years old, and every single thing you said describes me perfectly. When I was very young, I was partially mute. I would only speak to a select few people. I've come out of that now, but I'm still shy. I often find myself studying people as well. I have a best friend who I feel very connected to.

Also, I experience strange things as well. Dreams that come true, dreams with cryptic messages (mostly having to do with numbers), things like that. I also hear other people's thoughts in my head, mostly at night, and I can see auras (although I have to try a bit to see them).

I often find myself longing for something, but I don't know what it is. Do you experience this? I feel like I'm supposed to have some sort of big purpose or something. I also find myself being drawn to places, like the forest by my house. I've always felt like I need to go in them, like a hidden secret or something is in there. But for some reason, I just have this feeling that I'm not supposed to go in them until there's snow on the ground. And I have to be alone. Weird, right?

It seems strange that two people who have never had anything to do with each other can be so alike. As well as Nova and Patrick. I'd love to have the chance to talk to all of you, since we all seem to experience the same thing. Plus, we're all teenagers. 13, 14, 15, and 16. Does that seem weird to you, too?

Anyway, I'd love to hear back from you!

cctott120 (guest)
11 years ago (2012-09-25)
Anne, Thank you so much for explaining all of this, it helps so much!:) Do you know of any good sites about this? About old souls or a mission on Earth?

Nova and Patrick, I cannot even explain how happy it makes me to know there are others experiencing this:) It'd be great to talk more about this and any other experiences, my email is cctotten [at]
❤ Courtney
sensoryguy (1 stories) (22 posts)
11 years ago (2012-09-25)
hi my name is patrick and I'm 16 years old. I recently discovered that I am a crystal child as well. I understand you completely and have some of the same things going on with me. Not exactly of course but most very similar. I have a some telepathy, empathy, and literally feel other people and their energy field. I also feel very connected to nature (plants and animals). You are here for a grand purpose. Everyone one is, but those such as you, your friend, me and many others are here to help the earth and mankind evolve into higher conscious beings. It does not mean we should have the pretense in our mind that we are special but more so, such as you stated in your story,"we have a special mission, or task ahead. Its important for us to help people, though we need to find limits for the help we give, or it will effect us and throw us off our mission. Stay connected to nature too, it will calm and cleanse you. It always help me:) its actually really cool to find more and more people becoming more conscious. Makes me feel happy inside! If you ever want to talk over email that would be cool. Mine is g.maroon [at]
NovaStayer47 (guest)
11 years ago (2012-09-25)
Everything that you said reminds me of me. Every little you detail that you have said, to feel like having people watch you to have a person who I have a connection with describes me. It's uncanny and odd, that we are so much alike. I am a 14 year old and I am an empath and a Wiccan and it sounds like you've, lived a past life, have astral projected, are an empath too, and can precognition. I assume you know what there are but if you don't,let me elaborate. Astral projection is common and usually happens when you are asleep, as yours did. An empath can feel what other people are feeling around them or even people that they are close too, who may be far away from them. And precognition is when you dream of the future and it comes true. People often mistake it as Deja-Vu because they don't remember that they drempt it. I hope we can talk more because I would love to learn more of there things that you've experienced. I hop this helped a little.:P (:
❤ Nova
AnneV (4 stories) (1064 posts) mod
11 years ago (2012-09-25)
You are different. You're an older soul witnessing others that are still in the first grade, spiritually. It's difficult to be sure but you're also right, you have a purpose. There are countless stars and countless other planets not to mention numerous dimensions. To think all incarnated souls originate from earth is silly. Some incarnate from other places and if recent enough, they feel even more 'not at home'. The good news is that in relative terms, your life here is very short and once you've done your work, you get to return to the more evolved dimension you came from. But make the most of your time here because know it or not, you chose to come here to help. Call it what you want (star child or whatever), those souls incarnate out of a desire for service to others, not service to self. Your destiny will unfold at the exact moment it should and as you are ready. It will become self evident. These things are not to be chased, just observed (and it sounds like you're already an excellent observer).

You did meet your friend on purpose. Each person we meet is yet another layer in our destiny.


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