My name is Tatiana, I'm 15 years old and I recently discovered my friend and I have this bond over a topic that has been in my life since I was really little.
I feel as if I am meant to do something different in this life, that I am meant to fulfill a destiny that normal humans do not even consider. The place that I am living in just does not feel like my actual home and I just feel as if there is something more for me to discover. It's weird to feel this way because I don't know many people who experience this, only my best friend.
I always find myself observing others reactions. Sometimes when people are engaged in a conversation, instead of joining in, I merely look at how they react to each others' responses and I just find it fascinating. It's really weird for me to feel this way sometimes because I have to always remind myself that this is not normal and that I should just interact with other people in a normal way. I always find that I can't though. I am always drawn to the interactions between humans and I never just feel like I 'fit in'.
Also, I experience déjà vu whenever I pass by open fields that have an air of mystery to them. I always get this sense of longing whenever I pass by anything nature-related or that just seems so peaceful to me. I get this sense that I've lived there before or that my déjà vu is hinting that I have lived in a different time. I really do feel like this era is not one that I am meant to live in, I just feel like there is so much that I have to accomplish in a different time.
Also, my best friend also experiences the same exact things that I do. We always agree about all our experiences and we have this sort of connection that connects us with almost everything in our lives. For example, she also gets déjà vu all the time and she always observes how people interact. We also have this weird association with the number one. We are born one day apart, in the month of January (first month) and there are many more coincidences that all lead back to the number one. Does anyone know if that number is significant in any way?
I feel like I'm perceived as a very quiet girl, but really, no one knows my story. I also always feel so much more mature than anyone else in my grade or just anyone in general. I do not find things interesting that they would and I do not regard them as significant. I just feel like everyone else is so focused on materialistic ideas or they just do not have the same 'depth' that my friend and I have.
I also have this inexplicable love for anything that is vintage. I am always drawn to vintage/ old fashioned items and I just get that sense of longing again. I always wish I was born in the Victorian times and I just do not feel like the time I am in is where I belong. Does anyone else feel remotely the same as I do?
Thank you for reading