I am not sure how to start this. I always felt embarrassed after I discussed the experiences in my life. As if I am just imagining it all. I usually have vivid dreams, and my friends would be surprised on how much I can explain of my dreams. The first dream as a child (that I can remember) was of me seeing a ladder reaching to a different world. Sometimes I feel like my dreams let me know the people I am going to meet or situations that may occur. I say may, because I feel as if the dream is letting me know the choices that are needed to be made. As if it is up to me. However, I feel like I am going crazy from getting too involved in these dreams.
For instance, a year or two ago, I had a dream of me seeing what was happening in parts of my life. I am traveling down this road with green grass and enter a home. The home turned into a portal into another stage. A few large Grecian ruins with cobwebs are in front of me. Then I see on one side a road lined up in a cool neighborhood with a Ferris wheel on the end; but, not far after the street was nothing. Towards the middle of the area, I climb up a ladder and it was a school. Then I climb back down, entering a museum with strange sculptures that change shape. As I enter in deeper into the museum, sand starts coming towards me, from deeper in the museum. I panic and run out. Only to see a a male figure in front of the window of the museum give me a hint, but the figure disappears. Then I see one Grecian ruin with a city building behind it.
Not long after that dream, I make an attempt to move up North, thinking it was the best decision; only to realize that it would not work for me. So I come back home and take classes at the college. I took Art, because I did not know what other classes to take with the main ones I am supposed to take. We end up learning about Greek and Roman architecture. In mid Nov I take a trip to London and in love with the city. I visit museums and in love with the city. I feel like I have this nagging feeling I should be there. Prior to the trip, I had a really weird dream that I am traveling on a highway into a city. I hear a voice tell me I am on the right path. It didn't even feel like a dream. When I awoke from it, I had a dizzy feeling.
I am soo sorry this post is very long and hopefully not tedious to read. I feel torn between reality and my dreams. These vivid dreams I had have ruined my relationships because I would see what going on and it did happen. Or I think it has. I don't want to feel crazy anymore and want to just walk away from all this. From all that I have felt or visioned in the past. I know it sounds cruel, but I want to think it is schizophrenia, so I can get some kind of help. I tried to see a local medium, but I did not feel that comfortable with her. When I tried to visit her on her workshop of talking to your angels, she told me that there was a mix up and that it changed. Does anyone else feel like their dreams are making them frustrated and out of the loop? Now that I want to walk away from all this. I have dreams of being kidnapped and having my measurements taken. A man is yelling at people telling them to grab the child/girl.