Not sure if this is the place I should be posting but I would love some feedback as my experiences have disturbed me quite a lot.
They started occuring after I had my first child 13 years ago, they happen about once every 3 months.
Normally it happens when I first settle into bed. I am still awake at this point and I start hearing what I can only describe as swooshing sounds. I have tried to get back up and walk around for a bit just to try and stop them, I know what is about to happen. I don't like them but the noises come back as soon as I return to bed. I always tell my partner that I feel I'm going to have one of my episodes. It is almost as if I have to go through the experience before I can settle. I have tried everything to stop it but once these noises have started that's it I know no matter what I do I just have to get it over with.
I then start hearing like beeping noise's, and start to feel a strong force trying to drag me from my feet. I can't see anything but I just sense it's something dark. I try to grab hold of my partner screaming for his help to shake me out of this state, I can see him laying there but its like I'm going straight through him. I feel really frightened at this point and somehow manage to shake myself from it. That's it I'm awake again.
I ask my partner if he notices anything, he says he doesn't I'm just laying there asleep.
It has also happened once before during the day, I sat down, wasn't intending on sleeping but I somehow felt I moved to another chair. My children were playing around me. Again I was trying to get them to shake me back but to them I was asleep on the chair I first sat in.
I would say these episodes last no more than 30 secs but it's very hard to say.
My 14 year old got up one night saying "mum I think I've had one of your episodes" She described it exactly how I feel it. This was about a year ago and touch wood she hasn't had one since.
My worst experience happened last night. I was actually asleep when this one happened because I can remember the dream I was having immediately before it, which is very unusual. This episode went on for much longer. My dream suddenly stopped and the noises came and I was immediately fighting with these dark forces. There seemed to be more than one dark force this time, I can't explain how I know this. I was trying to fight them, to stop these force's pulling me. I could feel a sharp pain in the left side of my abdomen like I was being stabbed. I was sleeping with my daughter at this time and trying desperately to wake her to shake me out of it. Again I eventually managed to shake myself out of it but it seemed to go on for ages.
I find them so disturbing. My partner just laughs and says it's probably just a state of sleep. No one takes it seriously except my elder daughter. They do seem very real to me and it's frightening.
I would be grateful for any feedback or ways to manage these episodes.