I don't usually talk about this part of my life to anyone (especially not online). However, I need outside help this time.
I've always been extremely sensitive to things of the spirit. I'm an adult now but have had this as a part of my life since I was a small child. I've always been a Medium, easily able to astral project, have had multiple verified premonitions, am an empath, etc. I've always been able to just know things and just feel things and see spirits (regardless of who or what they are). I've never delved into that, but it's a way of life for me (even if I don't clue others into it). It's a part of who I am. That being said, I've come into contact with a being who seems to want to seal it all away--from myself and other spirits. It is a calm and collected spirit with an amazing aura, but it doesn't strike me as a good spirit.
This particular spirit has been renewing a seal that dampens my abilities for a few years now. It'll fade. My senses will renew. I'll start to see and sense normally again, and it shows up to renew this type of energy-like seal, and it goes away again. I'll have trouble sensing sometimes but will generally still be able to. That was until last night, at least.
Well, this time, it's worse. This spirit placed another seal. Both of them are made of this beautiful gold energy and threads of light that almost look alive. I've never seen anything like it. Now, I can't see any spirits. I can't sense anything. I can't even sense my family and friends' emotions like I used to. I know to some, this may sound silly or like a matter of just re-connecting with meditation, but it's beyond that..., or I would have done it. I know I need to break these, but I don't know how. I don't even know what seals are. I've always just had this natural connection with things. I've never read up on stuff like this. I've never been one to talk about it with others.
Still, I'm not going to be bullied or suppressed like this. I just don't know how to break these seals that are separating myself from spirits and vice versa. It's like trying to move a broken arm. It just won't move this energy is so over-whelming. I just can't see or even try. I feel like a part of who I am is missing. I can't remember anything the spirit said to me when it sealed my senses. It did give a reason for why, but I don't remember it. I don't remember it being anything for personal growth. It just seemed the spirit had personal motive. Even that sounds absurd to me. I'm not used to being this open with it. Sorry! Trying to remember what it said is like trying to remember what happened on a Thursday in 1993. Even my memory of what it said is sealed. Almost like when you wake up from a dream you know you had but can't remember. It only happened last night.
So, please don't judge me too harshly. I just want some advice and help to get back to who I am normally.