I am new to this site. I would like some help if possible.
I would like to know "What I Am" - I am hoping someone can help me.
My father told me never to speak of any of these things with anyone & to keep it all secret. He also has some of these "issues" - he also said his mother did also.
Here is some information on me:
* I know what's in boxes, bags, etc. W/out looking in them.
* Animals - They just come to me - anywhere. I can do things with them that's not common.
* Visions - I see bits and pieces of things. Some things I never know what they are until they occur, & some things I never do figure out. I can tell you if someone is going to get hurt, or in an accident, or die.
* Healing - I can heal myself from minor ailments. I have healed some others w/minor ailments also. But I feel very weak & tired afterwards, like I'm drained. I can heal animals sometimes also.
* Electronics - When I am angry & working w/anything electronic it will either freeze up, smoke, or break. This happens w/household appliances, cars, gas pumps, cash registers, computers, cell phones, etc. Cars actually stop running at times, or start smoking for no reason. I have set also set things on fire, but this has only happened a handful of times. On each occasion I was angry at a person and they just happened to have something electric in there hands or on them - That item then caught fire.
* Hearing & Knowing things - I hear things. Voices. I know stuff that I couldn't possibly know. And half of the stuff makes no sense at all - why do I need to know this stuff? Example: What someone is going to say or think. I usually know when the phone will ring and who is on it. I know babys genders, illnesses, problems they are having.
* Pain - A very close family member was going threw some very intense health problems and I felt like I was being ripped apart. It was like I was feeling what they were going threw.
There is more small things, but I cannot think of them off the top of my head right now. I have never spoke to anyone about these things, except my father. This started when I was young, I thought I was going insane. I was so afraid and didn't know who to tell or even what to say. It started out by me having visions and grew from there. Eventually, I asked my father and he told me that I was not crazy and that he sees things also. He told me his mother had the same thing. My husband knows about these things, but we don't discuss it cause it makes him very uncomfortable. He has witnessed pretty much all of the things mentioned above, and let's just that the less he knows the better he feels. My main goal for writing this, is that I am hoping to find out if there is a name for what I am? When I was younger I thought I was evil... Why don't I see good things happening? Why can't I help people? Then I went through a phase where I self medicated and ignored it all. Neither phase was healthy for me. So here I am now, wanting to know what I am and if its possible for me to help people without looking like a lunatic. Or I would like to find someone help me control it. After reading some of your postings on this site, it made me feel better. I felt like I was not alone.
Any info is appreciated. Thanks so much for your time!