My name is Alexander and I am new to the site and for the most part, to the use of my abilities in a conscious manner. My mother and I are both clairsentient, and she was actually the one who first confirmed my abilities. She and I have always been very interested in ghost walks, ghost hunting and various aspects of the paranormal since I have been fairly young. While I first noticed the manifestation of this ability to feel beings and energies at the age of eight, it wasn't until I moved here, to Texas and met a nice sized group of paranormal sensitives that I began to truly explore the extent of these abilities. I have a lot of questions to ask so please bear with me while I formulate them...
First and foremost, allow me to explain that I have had very little formal training and meditation is often very difficult for me. Despite this, I have feel I have managed to expand the range of my clairsentience to a fairly good distance on a night with a full moon or thunderstorms. Is it normal to experience a peak or spike in ability during these times or is it just my imagination? Also, I have noticed what I can only call vortexes, and that there are these otherworldly looking or feeling creatures passing in and out of these vortexes. I don't believe these are demons, but more along the lines of beings from another plane of existence. Has anyone experienced this kind of phenomenon?
Next, I have found that I have the ability to manipulate my energy and the energy of those within close proximity. I feel the flow of energy comes primarily from a source in the center of my forehead and the center of my chest (seeming to coincide with the two chakras). I haven't particularly paid much attention to chakras, but I am fairly familiar with the concept. In addition, I find that I tend to focus my energy most successfully by concentrating on my heartbeat in one particular part of my body (normally my hands or neck) and allowing that feeling to wash through the rest of my body until I feel "charged" or in control of my energy. Besides the obvious suggestion of meditation (which I suppose this could be considered a mild form of meditation) is there a better way for me to focus these energies, considering how scatter-brained and distracted I get or is this considered a viable way of focusing one's energy?
Also, concerning my energy manipulation, I have recently noticed a significant change in the feel of my energy. Before this one particular episode involving what one of my local peers called "grudges", my energy had always felt very cold, very fluid and much like a dark, turbulent sea. I had become very comfortable with this and when it changed to this very dense, solid, almost scorching heat (I can only liken this to cooling magma) it scared me a bit. I'll admit that the event that seemed to cause this change had been traumatic at the time, but I hardly see how it caused the essence/feel/element of my energy to change. Is this a normal? Is it even possible for one's element to change? Is it possible that a recent mental convergence of various aspects of my personality is the real reason behind this change?
On another note, I have a few questions about an event that occurred two Halloween's ago, during a period of full moon. I was staying with a friend at the time, who is a very powerful empath among other things. While he was still awake and working at his desk I had gone to sleep only to be awakened by a very strong disturbance around my friend's house. He didn't seem to notice the presence, however, he noticed my panic before I had the chance to say anything or even leave my bedroom. Needless to say, he thought nothing of it, but I could not break this feeling and this...vision? Even while I was awake and pacing through the house. The vision itself was of a thick, red fog flowing across his field, surrounding the house and these beings trying to get into the house itself. I could only describe the beings themselves as tall, thin, creatures looking similar to the general idea of what "grey" aliens look like, only they had no eyes and sharp, pointy teeth. I ended up frantically "sealing" the windows, doors and any opening I could think the house may have with a barrier. At some point, I had overlooked the dog door and as soon as I felt the fog actually roll in, this grip of terror and panic took over and I kept repeating, "it's in here...it's in here". After which, I suppose my empath friend did something to me and I guess I fell asleep. When I woke up, I remembered the events, but only as a kind of distant memory, with no emotional attachment to what happened.
Has anyone experienced this kind of red fog, these bizarre creatures, or even a total block of one's emotions tied to an event? What was this fog? What were these creatures? I swear on everything I know that I was awake for this whole thing but as skeptical as I am of it being just a dream, could this just be an extremely elaborate lucid dream?
Besides all this, about a year and a half ago I was visited by nine beings who had expressed their purpose to be my guidance moving forward. However, in the past six months at least, these beings have not contacted me nor have I felt their presence. I have no other way to describe them other than "The Nine" so I feel I can't really elaborate on their origin or their agenda. Meditation doesn't seem to yield any results with these particular beings, so I'm a little lost as to where they may have gone or for what reason. Thoughts?
I'm waiting on pins and needles for any and all responses,